I Still Love You

Your shadow lives inside these walls

I hear your footsteps down the hall

Every room still holds your name

But nothing here feels quite the same

I tell myself that I moved on

Then midnight comes and proves me wrong

I close my eyes, you're there again

A memory I can't condemn

You left me with the silence

But not the love you gave

I buried all the photographs

But couldn't bury yesterday

I STILL LOVE YOU!

Even though you walked away

I STILL WANT YOU!

Even though you couldn't stay

You took your heart and left me

With everything we were

And I hate that I still love you

But I don't know how to stop

I wonder if you ever think

About the nights we couldn't sleep

The promises beneath the stars

The way you knew my broken parts

Maybe you've forgotten

Maybe you're finally free

Maybe somebody else now gets

The person you once were to me

I don't want to hate you

I don't want revenge

I just wish I could forget

Where your story ends

I STILL LOVE YOU!

Even though you walked away

I STILL NEED YOU!

Though I know you couldn't stay

You took the life we dreamed of

And left me with the scars

But somehow all this distance

Can't erase where you are

YOU LEFT!

I STAYED!

YOU MOVED ON!

I REMAINED!

I CAN'T KILL

WHAT I FEEL!

I CAN'T FAKE

THAT I'M HEALED!

EVERY MEMORY!

EVERY NIGHT!

EVERY FUCKING

WASTE OF TIME!

I STILL LOVE YOU!

THAT'S THE TRUTH!

AND I'D RATHER

FEEL THE PAIN

THAN LIE ABOUT YOU!

If loving you means letting go

Then I'll learn to let you live

I'll carry what you left behind

But I won't ask you to come back

I hope you find the peace

That I couldn't give you then

And maybe someday I'll remember

You without wishing for the end

I STILL LOVE YOU!

But I'm learning to let go

I STILL MISS YOU!

But I know you had to go

You were a chapter in my life

Not the ending of my story

And even though it fucking hurts

I'll remember what we were

You left.

I stayed.

The love stayed too.

But maybe someday...

I'll finally learn to leave it in the past.