Buried But Not Gone

I said goodbye a thousand times

But the silence never answered

I walked away from everything

Except the shadow in my chest

I keep dragging yesterday

Like a chain around my neck

Every road I take somehow

Leads me back to my regrets

I burned the photographs

But I still see your face

I tore apart the memories

But they won't leave this place

Every scar became a map

Of everywhere I've been

And every time I try to heal

The past crawls back again

I keep moving

But I'm standing still

I keep fighting

What I cannot kill

I CAN'T MOVE ON!

I'M BURIED IN THE AFTERMATH

I'VE BEEN RUNNING FROM THE PAST

BUT IT'S RUNNING BACK

I CAN'T MOVE ON!

EVERY STEP JUST FEEDS THE FLAME

I'M TRYING TO BECOME SOMEONE NEW

BUT I'M STILL WEARING YOUR NAME

The clock keeps turning

Like it doesn't know I'm broken

Days become years

But the wound remains wide open

I learned to smile

I learned to hide

I learned to say that I'm alright

But underneath the skin

I'm still fighting that night

I hate the person I became

Trying to hold onto the dead

Sometimes letting go feels worse

Than carrying the weight instead

SO TELL ME—

HOW DO I BURY

WHAT STILL LIVES INSIDE ME?

HOW DO I FORGET

WHAT MADE ME WHO I AM?

I'VE CUT THE CORD!

I'VE CLOSED THE DOOR!

I'VE SWORN I'D NEVER LOOK BACK—

BUT I STILL DO!

Maybe moving on

Doesn't mean forgetting

Maybe healing isn't erasing

Every piece of what happened

Maybe I can carry the scars

Without carrying the chains

I CAN MOVE ON!

EVEN IF THE PAST REMAINS

I DON'T HAVE TO FEED THE FIRE

JUST BECAUSE I KNOW ITS NAME

I CAN MOVE ON!

I'M MORE THAN WHAT I LOST

THE WOUND MAY NEVER DISAPPEAR

BUT IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE MY GOD

I WAS THE PRISONER!

I WAS THE CHAIN!

I WAS THE GHOST

CALLING OUT MY NAME!

BUT I'M STILL HERE!

I'M STILL HERE!

The past can follow me

It doesn't have to lead

For the first time in forever

I'm choosing where I bleed