WHAT IF I SAID by JONJON - Zona

WHAT IF I SAID by JONJON - Zona

Lyrics

[intro]

What if I said I lied

What if I said

Every night I think about it, I wanna die

What if I said

That’s why I stay inside and hide

No matter how hard I try I can’t seem to shine

I’m so tired of hiding and want to climb outside

I pry and I pry but I lie and say I’m fine

I want to open my mouth but can’t

My roots are deep and planted

I want to stand and be rebranded

But I can’t take off from where I’ve landed

[drum solo]

[verse1]

I keep circling back to the old me

Stuck on the same road

I long for the change that takes away the damage

Raging against myself everyday in the mirror

Telling myself no one knows this pain

No one else feels the same way

I’m trapped, and held down

Face down on the cold concrete

Wrapped in chains

The demons, demons

Down deep and move discrete

Meeting once a day in secret

I know they have a plan for me

[chorus]

What if I said

What if I said

Welcome to my home this is where I live

Dark and cold, rooms of broken hope

And, shattered glass fill the floor

Old voices behind closed doors

Razor blades on the bed

And, broken bottles on the pillow next to my head

[verse2]

I say

Maybe it’s my fate

I made it myself

I’m the creator

I don’t want to change, I can’t do myself a favor

Maybe I like the pain

Maybe I like the attention

The feeling of loss, it’s gut wrenching

The empty bed with no one to hold

All the things I’ve done and no one to show

Maybe I like it

[SCREAM]

FUCK NO, I HATE IT

NOOOOO

I want to change I want to feel the warmth

A new touch, a hand to hold

I’m tired of the lows

I need some highs

Someone to help me climb

Someone I can call mine

Someone I can be with till the day I die

Then maybe I’ll be fine

[chorus]

What if I said

What if I said

Welcome to my home this is where I live

Dark and cold, rooms of broken hope

And, shattered glass fill the floor

Old voices behind closed doors

Razor blades on the bed

And, broken bottles on the pillow next to my head

[guitar solo]

I run around my mind looking for a face

Something’s lost

I can’t find

I can’t breathe

I’m not seen

Everything’s declining

Eroding the lining

Thinning in time

Changing the defining moment

Mmm…. It’s potent

It’s all

It’s all a

[SCREAM]

BLUR

AAAAAAGGGGHHHHH

ITS ALL A BLUR

[breakdown]

[outro]

I realize there’s damage here

It’s something I should share

And not keep locked up out of fear

I know I have family out there

I’m fortunate to have that

I know some people don’t

I said I won’t

That’ll change I’m trying harder now

Through the courage I’ve found

And just maybe I can come around

But

What if I said

[slow singing]

Welcome to my home this is where I live

Dark and cold, rooms of broken hope

And, shattered glass fill the floor

Old voices behind closed doors

Razor blades on the bed

And, broken bottles on the pillow next to my head

What if I said