Forgive & Forget

My life hasn’t always beenn perfect…. I’ve been through blurred lines, cut myself…. Beeeen thrrooogh helll. Drugged myself til I couldn’t feel… been abandoned, pushed away, alll byy my family, but…

I GUESS ILL HAVE TO FORGIVE AND FORGETTT. Even though it hurtts like FUCKING hellll. But I still love them. And I wooouldnt chaanngge anything.

I didn’t know that lovvvving someoneee could hurt me soo bad, but it WOULDN’T CHANGE ANYTHINGGGG any….way. I had to push through, break through, change myself.. playy a role that wasnnn’t me buuut I did it anyyyway just to bee loved the sameeee way.

I wass just a kid who grew up too fast, been raped, abused psychologically, physically. Buuuttt I couldn’t sayy anything about the way it made me feel…. Couldn’t exprress myselfff in any waayyyy because that would make me seem soft and weakkk, couldn’t go to therapy because I didn’t have the monnney, so I just took the abuse and pusshhed deeeeep insiiide til I hurt myself, cutting, drinking, smoking. Anywayyy I could.

So I guess I’ll haaavvvee to FORRGIVEEE AND FORREGETT. Even though it hurtss like FUCKING hellll. But I stillll love them….. aandd I wouldn’t chaaangee……….Anythingggg

Love yourself and put yourself first no one knows you lie you do. You matter. Love yourself always.