[Verse 1]
There’s smoke in my lungs again
Cold air outside the apartment
Cigarette trembling between my fingers
While your perfume still lives on my jacket
And the highway stretches endlessly
Black veins under dying streetlights
I drive until the sunrise bleeds
Just to outrun the fear you’ll leave me behind
But every road still sounds like your voice
Every silence tastes like panic
Cause loving you rewired my nervous system
Now absence feels catastrophic
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[Pre-Chorus]
You touch the tattoos on my chest
Like reading warning labels too late
And I swear your heartbeat beside mine
Is the only thing keeping me sane
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[Chorus]
You are my withdrawal
My fever dream revival
The drug I swore I’d survive
Before you pulled me back to life
And I’m terrified
One day your love will finally fade
That you’ll wake up beside me
And realize I was never worth the pain
Cause I only feel alive
When your body’s wrapped around mine
Like resurrection through addiction
Like heaven stitched into damaged skin
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[Verse 2]
We lay in bed without speaking
Your breathing slow against the dark
And somehow the silence hurts worse
Than all our worst fights ever did
I keep wondering if you feel it too
That distance growing underneath us
Like something dying quietly
Neither of us know how to stop
So I pull you closer in my sleep
Possessive
Desperate
Needing proof you still belong to me
And God…
I hate the way devotion turns obsessive
When you’ve spent your whole life
Expecting to be abandoned eventually
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[Pre-Chorus]
Your voice cuts through me softly
Like morphine through broken veins
And every “I love you” sounds temporary
Even when you swear it isn’t
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[Chorus]
You are my withdrawal
The trembling underneath it all
The reason my pulse still races
When your fingers drift across my scars
And if you stop loving me someday
I think my body would know first
Like a sudden lack of oxygen
Like the ocean abandoning the earth
Cause your hand over my heartbeat
Feels less like romance now
More like life support
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[Bridge]
Maybe we were always doomed
Two lonely people mistaking obsession for fate
Two damaged minds turning intimacy
Into something holy and terrifying
But when you whisper my name
Half-asleep in the dark
I swear every broken part of me
Still believes in God for a second
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[Final Chorus]
You are my withdrawal
My relapse
My religion
My fever dream in human form
And if loving you destroys me slowly
At least I’ll die understood
At least I’ll know what it felt like
To be wanted completely
So don’t let go tonight
Don’t let the silence win
Keep your heartbeat close to mine
Until I forget
How afraid I’ve always been
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[Outro]
There’s smoke still rising outside
The highway still calling my name
But your body beside me
Feels stronger than every escape route
And for now…
That’s enough
To keep me alive.
QXA