Verse 1:
You took my ability to see
the truth behind connection — what are we?
why couldn’t it be somebody else’s son?
why did it have to be me, the chosen one?
I cried for too long,
two years down the drain.
I shut my emotions off,
but everyone saw the pain.
I ignored every boundary,
kept you up when you were down.
hard to admit — I called it love
when it was just a breakdown.
Pre-Chorus:
what did I do
to deserve
what you put me through?
why didn’t I realize
you were playing a game
just to leave me traumatized?
Chorus:
it was always my fault —
I’m sorry.
the wound is full of salt —
but don’t worry.
I’m sorry but I still love you.
I hate that I still love you.
Verse 2:
I fucked up —
that’s what therapy tells me.
I’ve grown up —
but not the way I needed to be.
I was the failure
you adored at your lowest.
and it’s in my nature
never being the boldest.
This time
I wanted it to be different.
you claimed the crime
and called the damage brilliant.
Pre-Chorus:
the trauma lives on,
the nightmares breathe.
my mind is gone —
no time to grieve.
Chorus:
it was always my fault —
I’m sorry.
the wound is full of salt —
but don’t worry.
I’m sorry but I still love you.
fuck it — I love you.
Bridge / Outro:
I screamed your name
in the middle of the night.
you walked in the door
just to start a fight.
told me to back off
like I was some virus.
everything I gave
still wasn’t enough — it turned to violence.
you took my light,
my heart,
you took your bite
and ripped it apart.
the wound won’t ever heal —
maybe it was never real.
but I’m sorry — I still love you.
fuck, I love you.
jozrithin
