I‘m sorry, but I still love you

Verse 1:

You took my ability to see

the truth behind connection — what are we?

why couldn’t it be somebody else’s son?

why did it have to be me, the chosen one?

I cried for too long,

two years down the drain.

I shut my emotions off,

but everyone saw the pain.

I ignored every boundary,

kept you up when you were down.

hard to admit — I called it love

when it was just a breakdown.

Pre-Chorus:

what did I do

to deserve

what you put me through?

why didn’t I realize

you were playing a game

just to leave me traumatized?

Chorus:

it was always my fault —

I’m sorry.

the wound is full of salt —

but don’t worry.

I’m sorry but I still love you.

I hate that I still love you.

Verse 2:

I fucked up —

that’s what therapy tells me.

I’ve grown up —

but not the way I needed to be.

I was the failure

you adored at your lowest.

and it’s in my nature

never being the boldest.

This time

I wanted it to be different.

you claimed the crime

and called the damage brilliant.

Pre-Chorus:

the trauma lives on,

the nightmares breathe.

my mind is gone —

no time to grieve.

Chorus:

it was always my fault —

I’m sorry.

the wound is full of salt —

but don’t worry.

I’m sorry but I still love you.

fuck it — I love you.

Bridge / Outro:

I screamed your name

in the middle of the night.

you walked in the door

just to start a fight.

told me to back off

like I was some virus.

everything I gave

still wasn’t enough — it turned to violence.

you took my light,

my heart,

you took your bite

and ripped it apart.

the wound won’t ever heal —

maybe it was never real.

but I’m sorry — I still love you.

fuck, I love you.