[Verse 1]
Used to stare at the ceiling
Phone off, same clothes, same feeling
Didn’t wanna wake, so I slept through the day
Heart heavy like a bill I could never go pay
Mama call, I’d let it just ring
Said “I’m fine,” I ain’t feel a damn thing
Prayed once, then I put it on the shelf
Tried running from the world, really running from myself
[Chorus]
Now I’m up, got the weight off my chest (off my chest)
Still scarred, but I’m using what’s left (what’s left)
Had days I was drowning in my head
Now I grind like I’m saving who I was from the dead
Yeah, I’m up, got the pain in a press (in a press)
Turned stress into fuel, nothing less
Had nights I was begging just to rest
Now I’m wide awake, and I’m running up a check
[Verse 2]
Still got thoughts, but they don’t run me
Used to hate life, now the hate feel funny
Cut a few ties, had to give me room
Sun hit different when you walk from the tomb
Talk to God now, not just when I’m shattered
Therapy chair, pour it all, let it splatter
Homies said “change,” I ain’t think I could do it
Now they hit my line for the map through the ruins (yeah)
[Chorus]
Now I’m up, got the weight off my chest (off my chest)
Still scarred, but I’m using what’s left (what’s left)
Had days I was drowning in my head
Now I grind like I’m saving who I was from the dead
Yeah, I’m up, got the pain in a press (pain in a press)
Turned stress into fuel, nothing less
Had nights I was begging just to rest
Now I’m wide awake, and I’m running up a check (let’s go)