Don’t Even Cough Anymore

[Hook]
I don’t even cough when I get to the cigarette smoke
(yeah… numb to it…)
Noose tied around my neck, but it’s not a long rope
(tight hold…)
She says “just hold on for me, you gotta have hope”
(hope for what…?)
You are all 13 reasons why, got it looking like a love note
(too real…)
Getting hard to breathe, it’s not from the cigarette smoke
(can’t breathe…)

[Verse 1]

I been walkin’ through the night with all these shadows in my steps
(feels heavy…)
Tryna run from every thought but they still pound inside my chest
(heart racin’…)
I keep holdin’ in the pain until it’s spillin’ like the rest
(overflowin’…)
Tell myself I’ll be okay but I ain’t fully convinced yet
(not at all…)

Every moment feels like I’m just tryna mask another scar
(hide it…)
And I don’t talk about it much, I know I take it way too far
(went too far…)
All these demons in my head been tryna tear me apart
(rippin’…)
But somehow I still push forward even blinded in the dark
(still movin’…)

[Pre-Hook]

Yeah, I got these feelings I can’t process when they hit me all at once
(too much…)
I’ve been tired of actin’ strong, I’ve been tired of bein’ tough
(worn down…)
If I’m honest with myself, I haven’t been myself enough
(lost somewhere…)


[Hook]

I don’t even cough when I get to the cigarette smoke
Noose tied around my neck, but it’s not a long rope
She says “just hold on for me, you gotta have hope”
You are all 13 reasons why, got it looking like a love note
Getting hard to breathe, it’s not from the cigarette smoke
(not from the smoke…)

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Verse 2

I been battlin’ with habits that I swear I’d never keep
(fallin’ back…)
Staring at the ceiling thinkin’ why I can’t just fall asleep
(so tired…)
Every day I lift the weight but it gets harder when it’s deep
(too deep…)
Every secret that I swallowed shows its face inside my dreams
(can’t escape…)

I don’t know who I’m becoming, but I know who I’ve been before
(know that dude…)
And I’m scared that I’ll go back to him if I don’t close this door
(lock it shut…)
Tryna hold onto the version of myself that wanted more
(want more…)
But the darkness in my chest keeps pullin’ me right to the floor
(down again…)


[Bridge]

I ain’t askin’ for forgiveness, I just want a piece of peace
(please…)
I been livin’ in a storm that never lets my body breathe
(no air…)
Tryna tell myself that one day all this pressure’s gonna leave
(one day…)
But it still sits on my shoulders like it’s tryin’ to break the seams
(tearin’ apart…)


[Outro]

Yeah… I’ve been sinkin’ in the silence I don’t show to anyone
(quiet pain…)
Holdin’ onto darker thoughts and tryna outrun every one
(runnin’…)
Maybe one day I’ll escape the person I’ve become
(one day…)

I don’t even cough when I get to the cigarette smoke
(yeah… numb to it…)
Noose tied around my neck, but it’s not a long rope
(tight hold…)
She says “just hold on for me, you gotta have hope”
(hope for what…?)
You are all 13 reasons why, got it looking like a love note
(too real…)
It’s Getting hard to breathe

Emo rap, bedroom production, raspy voice, trippy, dreamy,energetic, emo, goth, grunt, grit, male, upbeat, trap