[Intro]
(Dark piano melody, distant atmospheric wind)
[Whispered]
The Choice is on me...
[Verse 1: Breathy, shaky vocals, vulnerable]
People say that I’m an addict
All I know is that I gotta have it
I don’t care if it kill me
I don’t care much about livin
You see I got to fill this void and it is so fulfilling
Until it leave me empty and I go to chase it
And there is no one around me so I gotta face it
You know these drugs is all I play with
I call them my closest friends
Even though they leave me dry
And when no one’s looking all I do is cry
Man I want to quit
But it comes again
Again...
[Verse 2: Build-up]
(Beat gets heavier, faster delivery)
You know that feeling of wanting more
And I get it and wake up on the floor
I just want to be loved
I want it to be how it was
And I don’t want my brother gone
Man I miss him but I gotta be strong
You know some times I feel like super man
After I get my next hit I am back at it again
Again... again...
[Bridge: Emotional Breakdown]
(Music drops out, just piano and strings)
Hopefully I’ll end up just like him
And no longer exist
No longer exist...
You know I didn’t ask for this life
I didn’t ask for all of this pain inside
I didn’t ask for my life to be this way
It sort of happened and now to hell with what you say!
[Verse 3: Aggressive Climax]
(Heavy cinematic drums, intense energy)
The Choice is on me
So I am mad at the world because I got a bad hand delt
And I wake up and say nothing because you don’t know what I felt
And it is a hard day to feel this way but hey, who cares anyways?
My shoes are torn and battered
And my soul and heart are beat up and shattered
Who are you looking at?
Only the outside you can really see
My eyes are red, haven’t slept in days…
Days....
[Reverb-heavy, haunting echo]
Maybe I will get better… will ya’ll please pray?
Pray... pray...
[Verse 4: The Struggle]
You know I need a Healer
But I am mad at Him
because He’s the ultimate Dealer
Of this thing called life
And I don’t agree with what I’ve seen
So you know all I do is fight and strive
with my Maker
Even though I know He’s calling
Even though I know that I’ve fallen
I won’t let him catch me you see I’d rather die
Die...
[Outro: Breakthrough]
(Music swells then suddenly quiet)
Because He took the apple of my eye
Apple of my eye...
I don’t quite fully understand
that my Master has a plan
And that He has me in His hands
And that my soul is in great demand
For His works and His glory
And that there are people just like me dying to hear my story
Of how I made it out and How God set me free
But the choice is on me
I die in the chains wanting to be free
But I strive inside the cell
Fighting
Reluctantly
I peek... I see His hand reaching for me
Angry... Broken...
[Climax: Intense, aggressive, visceral raw vocals]
Angry... Broken...
I am...
I am...
I Am...
I am...
HE says...
I AM!
He shows me
The choice is on me
He shows me
I hold the key
Choices...
Choices...
(Spoken)
Im sorry Jesus.
Thank You for Your mercy.
For saving him.
