Stone cold inside me
Is the heart that sometimes beats
Too numb from lifes pains
Too tired from lifes victories
Trying to grasp the hands
Of their times not much more they have
Hating to breathe
Hating to give
Hating what they did
Hating what i have had to do to live
Hating my suffering
Hating my scars
Hating my foolery
Hating what has transformed
They should be here
They should be here
They should be HERE
I cant see them
Only in my heart they stay
A long lost dream
Longing for their embrace
I long to get away
To be in heaven with them
I long to escape
To grasp them again
Sure, He is good
Sure, he gives life
Sure, he sustains
Sure he causes me to thrive
Sure am humbled at his feet
But sometimes i am lost in my own humanity
I hate it here
I have work to do
I hate it here
Let me go
Please God let me go
I am chained to this earth
Homeward bound
Sure, when i am lost, then i am found
But i hate it here
I am tired
There is lots i dont understand
They should be here
Holding my hand
They should be here
Not in a distant land
No longer seen
Yet they are free
Why cant that be me
Too many unseen
To sacrifice for
I hope that it is worth it
That you heal this bitterness in me
Too much pain and suffering
Too much misery
Heal it JESUS
Heal it
Heal this heart and make it beat again
I know you make dry bones live
Vindicate me
Restore me
To the joy of my salvation
My weeping has endured for the night
Now i want to see the goodness of God in the land of the living
More than I have before
I have seen your goodness, yes
Resurrect my heart from the ashes of grief
Cause me to rise
Dance again
And sing
Restore me to the joy of intimacy
And not redundancy
But abundancy
Of you
