[Verse 1]
I trace the cracks
On my own reflection
Counting every fight
Like a strange collection
You say my name
From another lifetime
It hits my ribs
Like a second crash site
[Pre-Chorus]
Every tear
Leaves a little tattoo
Every “stay”
Cut me closer to you
I keep your ghost
Right under my tongue
Scared of healing
’Cause then you’re gone
[Chorus]
I’m in love with the ache
With the after
Sip your poison like it’s holy water
Hurts so good
I can’t let it go
If I stop bleeding
You’ll fade like smoke
Chasing heartbreak
Holding on to the burn
I don’t want the cure
I just want to learn
How to keep this habit of hurt
This habit of hurt
[Verse 2]
You wrote
“I’m sorry”
On a folded napkin
I kept it pressed
Like it’s something sacred
[low vocal register] “Some people heal
Some people repeat”
I underlined it twice
Like it wasn’t about me
[Pre-Chorus]
Every scar
Is a quote I recite
“I’ll be fine”
As I beg for one more night
I wear the pain
Like a favorite shirt
Full of holes
But it still kinda works
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[whispered vocals] “You deserve better”
Echoes down the hall
But I miss the way it shattered
Every time we’d fall
If I let you go
What’s left of my story?
If I stop the hurt
Does it take you from me?
[Chorus]