Chains

(Dark piano melody, distant atmospheric wind)

The Choice is on me...

People say that I’m an addict

All I know is that I gotta have it

I don’t care if it kill me

I don’t care much about livin

You see I got to fill this void and it is so fulfilling

Until it leave me empty and I go to chase it

And there is no one around me so I gotta face it

You know these drugs is all I play with

I call them my closest friends

Even though they leave me dry

And when no one’s looking all I do is cry

Man I want to quit

But it comes again

Again...

(Beat gets heavier, faster delivery)

You know that feeling of wanting more

And I get it and wake up on the floor

I just want to be loved

I want it to be how it was

And I don’t want my brother gone

Man I miss him but I gotta be strong

You know some times I feel like super man

After I get my next hit I am back at it again

Again... again...

(Music drops out, just piano and strings)

Hopefully I’ll end up just like him

And no longer exist

No longer exist...

You know I didn’t ask for this life

I didn’t ask for all of this pain inside

I didn’t ask for my life to be this way

It sort of happened and now to hell with what you say!

(Heavy cinematic drums, intense energy)

The Choice is on me

So I am mad at the world because I got a bad hand delt

And I wake up and say nothing because you don’t know what I felt

And it is a hard day to feel this way but hey, who cares anyways?

My shoes are torn and battered

And my soul and heart are beat up and shattered

Who are you looking at?

Only the outside you can really see

My eyes are red, haven’t slept in days…

Days....

Maybe I will get better… will ya’ll please pray?

Pray... pray...

You know I need a Healer

But I am mad at Him

because He’s the ultimate Dealer

Of this thing called life

And I don’t agree with what I’ve seen

So you know all I do is fight and strive

with my Maker

Even though I know He’s calling

Even though I know that I’ve fallen

I won’t let him catch me you see I’d rather die

Die...

(Music swells then suddenly quiet)

Because He took the apple of my eye

Apple of my eye...

I don’t quite fully understand

that my Master has a plan

And that He has me in His hands

And that my soul is in great demand

For His works and His glory

And that there are people just like me dying to hear my story

Of how I made it out and How God set me free

But the choice is on me

I die in the chains wanting to be free

But I strive inside the cell

Fighting

Reluctantly

I peek... I see His hand reaching for me

Angry... Broken...

Angry... Broken...

I am...

I am...

I Am...

I am...

HE says...

I AM!

He shows me

The choice is on me

He shows me

I hold the key

Choices...

Choices...

(Spoken)

Im sorry Jesus.

Thank You for Your mercy.

For saving him.