One Day I’ll Quit

Lost…

Lost…

So lost in my thoughts I can’t take it anymore

Using, abusing drank as a crutch for my mental

Don’t wanna go back to who I used to be

Don’t want to

Sip just to numb out these thoughts

Wanted to drown it out but it stays.

Lost…

Taking these shots straight, no chaser..

Body’s loose, face numb.

Said I wouldn’t chase her…

(Verse 2) Lost… still lost…

Woke up on the couch with the room doing spins,

Regret in my throat, got that familiar taste of gin.

Mirror looking back like “who the hell is this?”

Scars on my soul, can’t cover ’em with a kiss.

I said I’d quit a hundred times, but here we go again,

One more shot for courage, just to face the pain I’m in.

She left with my heart, now the bottle’s my friend,

But both of ’em poison, both of ’em pretend.

(Chorus) Taking these shots straight, no chaser,

Body loose, face numb, thoughts gettin’ hazier.

Said I wouldn’t chase her, but I’m stuck in the loop,

Drowning in the deep end, still can’t find the truth.

Lost… lost… so lost in my thoughts,

Using and abusing just to make the pain stop.

Don’t wanna go back to who I used to be,

But I don’t know who I am without this drink in me.

(Bridge) Maybe tomorrow I’ll put the bottle down,

Find a better way to turn my life around.

But tonight the demons got me on the ropes,

So I raise another glass, yeah, here’s to losing hope.

(Outro) Lost… lost…

Fading in the dark, can’t find my way home.

Lost… lost…

Somebody save me, I can’t do this alone.

(Extra Verse)

Yeah… look,

I stare at these empty bottles like they owe me answers,

Every label got a memory, every memory got cancer.

I was somebody’s hero, now I’m just a cautionary tale,

Momma praying for her son while I’m posted at the bar rail.

Friends stopped calling, they tired of the same old song,

I keep saying “I’m good” but we both know that I’m gone.

Heart still broken from the way she said goodbye,

So I’m tryna kill the feeling, but the feeling won’t die.

I swear I see her face every time I close my eyes,

That’s why I keep ’em open with another double on the rise.

I know this ain’t living, man this barely surviving,

But the sober me is terrifying, so I keep on hiding.

I’m my own worst enemy, I’m my own damn cage,

Trapped inside these thoughts at 23 years of age.

I just want the noise to stop, want the memories to fade,

But every time I try to run, they catch me in the same damn place.

Lost… man I’m lost… but I’m still here breathing,

Maybe that’s the universe tryna tell me there’s a reason.

I just gotta find it before this liquor claims my soul,

Before I become a ghost in the stories that I told…