(Verse 1)
I moved too fast, I broke the speed limit
Fell for the silhouette before I saw the spirit
Now I’m holding on with white-knuckle grip
Scared if I let go, I’ll cease to exist
Two weeks in and I’m planning the years
Trading my healing to silence the fears
I know it’s heavy, I know it’s too soon
But I’m standing in the wreckage, begging for room
(Chorus)
I wanna be the one you call, I wanna be your person
But I see the walls you built, I know you’re hurtin'
I’m trying to walk slow, trying to breathe easy
But my trauma says to run before you leave me
I’m terrified that I’m already attached
Watching the clock while the minutes get latched
I want to be your person, God, I want it bad
But I know you aren’t ready for the love I have
(Verse 2)
It seeps into the coffee, it seeps into the drive
Every silence feels like a reason to cry
I’m waiting for the shoe to drop on the floor
Like I did a hundred times right before
He told me I was nothing, just dust on the shelf
And I spent years trying to pick up myself
Now you look at me and I don’t know what you see
Just a ghost of a girl who used to be free
(Bridge)
I’m sorry I’m so much, I’m sorry I’m so loud
Sorry that my anxiety draws such a heavy crowd
I’m not trying to trap you, I’m not trying to tie
I’m just trying to convince myself I’m not gonna die
If you turn around and decide to walk away
I know that I’ll survive, but I’ll still feel the fray
Of a heart that remembers exactly how to break
And hands that are trembling with every breath they take
(Guitar Solo - Slow and melancholic)
(Chorus)
I wanna be the one you call, I wanna be your person
But I see the walls you built, I know you’re hurtin'
I’m trying to walk slow, trying to breathe easy
But my trauma says to run before you leave me
I’m terrified that I’m already attached
Watching the clock while the minutes get latched
I want to be your person, God, I want it bad
But I know you aren’t ready for the love I have
(Outro)
I’ll take it back, I’ll take it slow
I just don’t want to end up alone
Not again
Not again
Just tell me I’m something
Just tell me I’m... something.