(Verse 1)
The room is still, the lights are low
I feel your breath begin to slow
Your arm is heavy, warm, and tight
Protecting me against the night
For a moment, panic starts to fade
Into the safest bed I’ve made
I close my eyes and dare to breathe
Drowning in the calm you weave.
(Pre-Chorus)
But underneath the skin and bone
A siren screams that I’m alone
It whispers that the floor will drop
And I’ll be left to clean it up
It says, "Enjoy it while it lasts"
'Cause nothing good is in the past
The clock is ticking on the wall
Just waiting for the hammer fall.
(Chorus)
I want to believe this is real
That the way you look at me isn't part of a deal
I want to trust the words you say
But my brain is screaming, "It’s all just a play"
It tells me safety is a lie
A sweet before the bitter cry
I’m so afraid to open wide
That I’ll find nothing inside.
(Verse 2)
I watch you laugh, I watch you care
I see the love that isn't feigned
How can a heart be so repaired?
It feels untouched, it feels unstained
I see the kindness in your eyes
A light that never seems to die
But then the shadows start to creep
With all the memories they keep.
(Pre-Chorus)
They say he’s just like all the rest
Putting on a face, a test
They tell me he will turn around
And bring me to the broken ground
"Look closer," says the voice of fear
"There’s a monster hiding near"
It paints your face with someone else’s brush
Turning all the hope to dust.
(Chorus)
I want to believe this is real
That the way you look at me isn't part of a deal
I want to trust the words you say
But my brain is screaming, "It’s all just a play"
It tells me safety is a lie
A sweet before the bitter cry
I’m so afraid to open wide
That I’ll find nothing inside.
(Bridge)
I’m standing on a ledge of glass
Waiting for the quiet to pass
I want to jump into your arms
And trust you won’t let me fall apart
But the ghosts are pulling at my sleeves
Reminding me of what it leaves
When you believe the lie is true
And the one you love turns on you.
(Outro)
So hold me tight and don't let go
Even if I tremble so
I’m fighting wars inside my head
Wishing the liar there was dead
Just let me stay here for tonight
Before the darkness turns to light
I know you're real, I know you're true
God, I wish I believed it too.
