Love Less

I have a few things i need to say, i gotta get them off my chest,

I dont think u really wanna hear what i need to confess

This is about love this is about sex,

This is about comfort and all that comes next,

This is about lust and undeniable disrespect;

This is about u not caring u turned my life into a mess,

This is about u being the one who isn’t giving this ur best,

It isnt about me trying to turn ur life up side down its not that im obsessed;

This isn’t about me wanting to strain us or cause us any stress;

But i do wanna get this shit outta my head and get some rest.

I wish i didnt care about u so much, i wish i loved u less.

Now that ive said what i need ti, ill stand down, ill digress,

Ive always has the best intuition, and it feels like things changed,

Everything looks the way it should but it just dont feel the same,

I know how this should be, no need to explain,

I dont play sports, cards or tables, im just not into games,

And i hate that u did this, sorry to place the blame;

The fact u keep protecting her, seems a little strange;

Dont seem like ur working on urself, remorse or are ashamed;

It got us fighting alot now, and im drained and our relationship is strained

U havent suffered any consequences but benefits u gained,

While im sitting here traumatized every time i hear that bitches name,

Is feeling that way justified or am i going insane?

Wanna know how i know, he doesn’t give a single fuck?

I ask and beg him for the truth, but still, he dont reveal much;

I already kno the truth tho, ive known about that shit for months;

He swears that hell tell me everything, but dont seem like hes in a rush;

I really miss the old him, i want this to go back to how this was;

I dont wanna fight, bicker or argue, i miss the old us;

But everything changed when i apparently wasn’t quite enough;

And thats when it started, all that cheatin stuff;

All in all thats what having a pussy addiction does;

Dont matter who hes fuckin as long as he gets to bust his nut;

Hell never know how it feels to be this betrayed and fuckin crushed;

My heart in my stomach and my throat had a lump;


Instead of answering my questions, you start to act distant,

Im only tryin to figure out,1 how you feel about this bitch,

Am i that bad? Is she that good? Do u want something different?

Whats so special about her? Why do u even like this chick?

Convinced that the thoughts in my head are actually realistic,

Like “ok renee, he prob only likes her, cuz how she suckin on his dick.”

This is painful and embarrassing, do u think that i deserve this shit?

I dont know if u are just an asshole or actually narcissistic,

Or if ur even aware of how much u hurt me, if u are then ur sadistic

But even with all that said, i love u, and would like to try and fix this.

I’ll stay solid through every up and down you’ll ever have,
so when all is said and done, i proved there is no doubt ill have ur back,

Id go to war for you right now and always fuckin have;

Thats why this situaation we’re in now has me pretty fuckin sad;

Ive never loved a man more then u, i got it for u bad,

But some of the shit u do makes no sense, and stuff like that, i cant stand;

Maybe ur ashamed by me, but im proud that ur my man;

I’ll be whatever u want me to be, ur submissive and ur little kitty cat ;

Im a loyal lover, best kinda friend, and ur biggest god damn fan;

dont know whats changed, can’t put my finger quite on it

. Pay attention to the questions I ask and how you responded.

U say u should leave that together we are toxic

And that we are like oil and water, we do not mix

And he really wonders why i dont have the slightest bit….

of trust,

I would never do what he did, i dont have the balls or the guts;

And he’s the only man i want, plus im not a fucking slut;

I guess, In our own ways, were both acting out on lust,

at the end if the day tho, just wanna feel his touch;

Most of all, i only want him to prove to me, hes still in fucking love;

So even tho this is a disaster, hope he knows I’ll NEVER give up.

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