The Curse

Its been a while since uve picked me first,

I guess u really have no idea that this feelings the worst,

I want you so bad cant seem to quench the damn thirst;

I guess this is what it means to have the fucking curse;

The curse of being in love, the curse of being in lust, the curse of never having one person to trust

The curse of a habit, the curse of an addict, of having everything u want in reach, but unable to grab it

The curse of aging, the curse of hating, the curse of working so hard and never quite made it

The curse of passing time, ur zodiac sign, the curse of knowing u coulda and shoulda been mine.

Cursed with being too big or too small, curse of the greatest that fall, wouldnt u know we been cursed with them all

Remember when u treated me like I was important;

When you’d buy me anything, if I couldn’t afford it;

When I felt like my opinions and dreams were supported;

The times when being a good girl was actually rewarded;

When I felt down about life u never ignored it.

When my stash was low, I didn’t have to ask for more shit;

Back before this became dysfunctional and distorted,

When my seat was next to u in the throne that that whore sits

I would give anything to go back before he cheated,

Now we fight so much, I can’t win, I’m defeated

Because u never learn from ur mistake, u just keep repeating;

And because of his guilt u threaten me that ur leaving

Never guessed we’d end up here, id never believed it

You just broke my heart again I think I’m about to be sick

Once upon a time, I had no doubt in my mind;

That I belonged to u and that u were all mine;

U used to make me feel so beautiful, girls like me are hard to find;

And ull never meet another girl like me, I am one of kind;

That any complication between the 2 of us has been worth the entire climb

It seems like we had passed the peak, staring down the other side:

I know that from the start till now, has been a roller coaster ride;

And I’m afraid that I’m gunna fall and hurt myself on the decline;

U just started actin a little weird and I kinda wonder why;

I’m not trying to make assumptions but all ur answers feel likek lies;

When the pieces fell together the truth was revealed I was surprised;

There was no way that I couldn’t see it, right in front of my eyes;

My love for u was reckless, had me dumb def and blind

Ur love for me was perfect once upon a time;

Wish we could just go back to then, if we could just rewind;