Verse 1
Every morning I wake up and you’re still in my mind,
Like a voice in the distance I can’t leave behind.
Every night I’m alone but I’m never alone,
‘Cause you live in my silence, you live in my phone.
I don’t know how to stop what I never chose,
You became the feeling that nobody knows.
And I swear I see you in the dark when I close my eyes,
Like a ghost that I love but I can’t recognize.
Pre-Chorus
They tell me let go, it’ll hurt less in time,
But I don’t want healing if it erases your signs.
If pain is the price for a heart still true,
Then I’ll pay it in silence just thinking of you.
Chorus
I’ve got death on my left hand, love on my right,
Pulling me apart every day, every night.
One side wants to break, one side won’t let go,
And I don’t even know which way I’m supposed to go.
Every second I’m bleeding but I still believe,
That somewhere in this distance you’re still thinking of me.
If patience is torture, then I’ll wear it like gold,
‘Cause loving you hurts but it’s all that I know.
Verse 2
I write you in pages you’ll never read,
Tell you the thoughts that you’ll never need.
But it keeps me alive when I’m losing my grip,
Like your memory’s the reason I don’t fully slip.
They say I’m stuck, they say I should move,
But they never felt what I felt with you.
It wasn’t just love, it was light and it was pain,
It was everything breaking and staying the same.
Bridge
If I’m honest, I don’t want it to fade,
Even if it cuts me in every way.
I’d rather feel everything than feel nothing at all,
Even if I’m the only one standing when I fall.
Final Chorus
I’ve got death on my left hand, love on my right,
And I’m stuck in the middle of wrong and right.
If this is a lesson, I don’t understand,
But I’m holding you close with both of my hands.
And if forever is nothing but learning to wait,
I’ll live in the tension of love and fate.
Even if it breaks me, I won’t let it end,
‘Cause you’re in my heart… again and again.
Lucent_Ash
