I will not lose myself

What you think of me won't change who I am. You have no understanding of my scars, and even less of how I got them. "Being sensitive is so embarrassing like how am I supposed to tell you I'm upset just because your energy felt a little off and it made me feel unwanted."
Not everyone thinks the way you think, knows the things you know, believes the things you believe in. I've outgrown the person i once was, but I'll never resent who I had to be. You drew the line to learn the weight. Stand where you are. Death doesn't wait for you to get your life together. It just reminds everyone-quietly—that the clock is ticking.
[Pre Chorus]
to burn bright. to burn fast.
to leave marks that stay long after
the destruction has passed.
If it makes you happy, take the risk.
In the worst case you learn.
change the lens. change the view.
change how you see things.
Unfolding parts of me I never knew existed.
[Chorus]
I need to let go.
I need to find peace.
I will not lose myself.
the waves speak the language Of flow.
they don't hold on to what must go.
to make it make sense. to explain it until it fit.
but not everything is meant to be solved.
some things are meant to be felt.
like i'm standing too close to everything.
like there's no space between me and what hurts. Remember this and you will go a long way.

[Verse]
EVERYONE HAS two SIDES, GOOD AND EVIL!
How you TREAT ME WILL DETERMINE WHICH
SIDE YOU SEE. But you will never see
Cause I hide it well
With every part of me
So if you notice
Just let it be
I'm not joking
But I'm laughing
he-he-he.
[Pre Chorus]
to burn bright. to burn fast.
to leave marks that stay long after
the destruction has passed.
If it makes you happy, take the risk.
In the worst case you learn.
change the lens. change the view.
change how you see things.
Unfolding parts of me I never knew existed.
[Chorus]
I need to let go.
I need to find peace.
I will not lose myself.
the waves speak the language Of flow.
they don't hold on to what must go.
to make it make sense. to explain it until it fit.
but not everything is meant to be solved.
some things are meant to be felt.
like i'm standing too close to everything.
like there's no space between me and what hurts. Remember this and you will go a long way.

[Bridge]
SANITY IS JUST
A PERFORMANCE
SOME OF US
NEVER stop acting.
fuck the way you blamed yourself for their shitty behavior. There were missteps, mistakes, and paths that led nowhere.
don't get too close. i don't trust good things.
they always come with an ending.
And i don't recover like
used to.
[Pre Chorus]
to burn bright. to burn fast.
to leave marks that stay long after
the destruction has passed.
If it makes you happy, take the risk.
In the worst case you learn.
change the lens. change the view.
change how you see things.
Unfolding parts of me I never knew existed.
[Chorus]
I need to let go.
I need to find peace.
I will not lose myself.
the waves speak the language Of flow.
they don't hold on to what must go.
to make it make sense. 


[Outro]

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