Trying to find my peace but these voices won’t let me.
Choosing fight or flight on a daily.
All I’ve ever done is run from my issues, we all got demons trapped inside.
Inside a beautiful nightmare, I feel like I’m my own worst enemy. Watching everything fall apart infront of me.
I’m damaged, but I’m still here. Overdosed 4 times, & self harmed. I got issues and scars that no one knows how to even help me.
My therapists say I got this? My family the same. The thing is I don’t know if I do I’m just passing through all the memories and all the screams.
Seems like I’m caught in this endless loop called life wondering if I’ll make it out alive. Will the storm precede me or will I be total knocked out in defeat. Will I be standing tall or will I drop to my knees. Tell me I’m this or that, but don’t be mad when I bite back. Feeling like an endless storm is approaching.. trying to ride out the waves. My emotions are so intense and the moment I let you close to me I want to run.. but I know if I did that I’ll lose the best person that can ever happened to me. You see I don’t understand the path I’m on but I know I’m walking on a tight rope. At the end of my rope, holding on waiting for peace.
These voices get so vicious
It’s like I’m on my knees bleeding out with only my family to hear me scream. Doctors won’t even listen to me, I feel alone hollow, with no where safe to go, running from my mind. Where a place used to be beautiful but now it’s like a dark hole. I trusted in life and all that did was beat me down. All I’ve got to say is welcome to my therapy, with a heart so full, and a mind so damaged. Welcome to the circus. Stripped of individuality. Welcome to the nightmare’s you’ve only read about in books and in the media. Welcome to extremes of reality/ twisted delusions hoping someone will save you. The thing that I recognized how it felt to lose you, but seems like I’m to far gone anymore.
Trying to find my peace but these voices won’t let me.
Choosing fight or flight on a daily.
All I’ve ever done is run from my issues, we all got demons trapped inside.
Inside a beautiful nightmare, I feel like I’m my own worst enemy. Watching everything fall apart infront of me.
