Alone

Why do I feel so alone,

sitting in bed watching the clock tick by.

In my head with the voices on a daily

Feeling like I’m really driving myself crazy

Feeling like a broken mess, yet I’m still here living.

Lost in a black hole,

With nothing to give and nothing to escape.

Drowning the memories,

Feeling like the only way I need to breathe is a ventilator machine

Yeah

But I can’t even do that to my family

Not again,

These voices in my head are vicious

And dangerous but I can’t let them stop me.

But tell me why I feel so god damn alone and hollow.

Broken and alone

Why do I feel so alone,

sitting in bed watching the clock tick by.

In my head with the voices on a daily

Feeling like I’m really driving myself crazy

You never know what you’re going to get a fucking homicidal maniac or a sweet innocent girl or the fucking bitch who destroys anything and everything

that’s me

Personality disorder now do you see?

Fighting over and over against myself on a daily.

Why do I feel so alone,

sitting in bed watching the clock tick by.

In my head with the voices on a daily

Feeling like I’m really driving myself crazy

Crazy how a house used to feel like home but as I look around, I feel like I’m all on my own. Crazy how I don’t fit in anywhere.

And the people that claim they loved me left me.

Aha