All these voices in my head
making me wanna die, making me wanna cry. I struggle to find the light, surrounded by nothing but darkness in the inside. All these moments all these problems. Running for my life, I can look you in the face and tell you I’ll be alright. But the ones who really know me, know that’s a lie. I fight everyday to stay alive, it’s like these voices in my head won’t let me sleep. They play these thoughts in my head on repeat, like will I be even be enough? Will I even succeed or will I surrender to me? I wanna open up but every time I do, I want to disappear or just fade away.
I push away the people I love, I can’t even begin to explain how I feel on this side. I can’t explain what’s going on with me, because I hardly know myself. I try to be positive but it’s so hard to be when you thought you’d be somewhere else. Limited to your mind, not able to let your true emotions show, bc you don’t want to hurt the ones you love around you. Bc if they really knew what was going on in your head, they’d know that it’s only a matter of time. Trying to find a way back to the light but broken on the inside. Why can’t you people see I need help.. but every time I try I get discouraged. My mind is my enemy, I need help. I overthink, I overstress I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t understand where I am, what’s going on and I’m terrified to truly say how I feel. Maybe if I could just figure shit out, life wouldn’t be so damn hard. Can hardly take care of myself, zero individuality. My past hurts, in a world full of hurt. Masking my emotions running from the life I have. All these voices in my head
making me wanna die, making me wanna cry. I struggle to find the light, surrounded by nothing but darkness in the inside. All these moments all these problems. Running for my life, I can look you in the face and tell you I’ll be alright. But the ones who really know me, know that’s a lie. I fight everyday to stay alive, it’s like these voices in my head won’t let me sleep. They play these thoughts in my head on repeat, like will I be even be enough? Will I even succeed or will I surrender to me?
