Static In My Veins

(Intro)

Yeah—

Don’t tell me I’m fine, you don’t know what I seen

Don’t tell me “calm down,” you don’t live in my dreams

(Verse 1)

I got rage in my chest, got ghosts in my skin

Every memory twisted, don’t know where to begin

They were supposed to protect me, yeah that was the lie

Now I flinch at the world every time it gets close to my side

Yeah—

Say I’m dramatic, say I’m insane

But you weren’t there when it burned in my brain

You weren’t there when I froze, couldn’t move, couldn’t speak

Now I carry that weight every day of the week

I don’t trust no one, I don’t sleep right

Every shadow got a face when it’s late night

Every word that you say feel fake to me

Like the whole damn world just playin’ me

(Pre-Chorus)

I don’t wanna feel this, I just wanna shut it off

Every thought too loud, every breath too rough

I ain’t asking for help, I just want some peace

But the noise in my head never gives me release

(Chorus)

It’s static in my veins, I’m losing control

Every scar, every memory taking its toll

I don’t scream no more, I just let it sit

All this anger inside, yeah I live with it

Static in my veins, can’t silence the past

Every second I’m breaking but I’m built to last

You can’t fix what you never even tried to see

So don’t stand there now acting sorry to me

(Verse 2)

Yeah I’m cold now, yeah I changed up

Had to build walls just to stay tough

You don’t know what it’s like when your safe place ain’t safe

When the people you trust leave a permanent stain

I was young, I was lost, I was easy to break

Now I’m piecing together every part that they take

Every lie, every touch, every line they crossed

Now I’m fighting myself tryna not get lost

Therapy talk, but I’m biting my tongue

How you heal when the damage already done?

How you trust when your past still breathin’ alive?

How you live when you barely survive?

(Bridge — intense)

Nah—don’t tell me “time heals,” that’s a lie that you sell

I been stuck in the moment, livin’ straight through hell

But I’m still on my feet, yeah I’m still in the fight

Even broken, I’m swinging with everything I might

(Chorus)

It’s static in my veins, I’m losing control

Every scar, every memory taking its toll

I don’t scream no more, I just let it sit

All this anger inside, yeah I live with it

Static in my veins, can’t silence the past

Every second I’m breaking but I’m built to last

You can’t fix what you never even tried to see

So don’t stand there now acting sorry to me

(Outro)

Yeah—

I’m still here.

And I ain’t quiet anymore.