Starved

Seventeen, yeah I bled for you

Thought your silence meant something true

Gave you everything I couldn’t fake

You gave me distance I couldn’t take

First time, yeah I gave it up

Two months in and it all went numb

You said love didn’t need that much

But I was dying without your touch

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You kept me waiting, I kept breaking

Every night felt suffocating

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I was starved in your arms, couldn’t feel a thing

You said “be patient” like it fixed everything

I was screaming just to feel alive

While you barely even tried

Love shouldn’t feel like begging on my knees

For a body that don’t want me

So I cut you out, let it bleed

Better alone than empty

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Every fight was the same damn script

I’d lose my mind, you’d just dismiss

Said I changed, said I went too far

But you never asked who you are

Yeah I flirted, yeah I needed proof

That I could still be wanted too

But even then it didn’t click

You just watched me self-destruct a bit

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I got louder, you got colder

Every second made me older

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I was starved in your arms, couldn’t feel a thing

You said “be patient” like it fixed everything

I was screaming just to feel alive

While you barely even tried

Love shouldn’t feel like begging on my knees

For a body that don’t want me

So I cut you out, let it bleed

Better alone than empty

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Don’t say you loved me, you don’t get that word

If I had to beg just to be heard

I gave you my first, you gave me doubt

Now I’m the one who’s walking out

I’m not insane for needing fire

You just killed every damn desire

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Cold sheets, your side untouched

Funny how I still wanted you so much

Now I hate how I needed that

But I won’t ever go back

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I was starved in your arms, I was fading out

You let me drown while you stood around

I was breaking just to feel your skin

But you never let me in

I won’t beg for something so incomplete

I won’t die just to feel your heat

So I burned it down, set me free

Better alone than empty