Numb Enough

(Verse 1)
Yeah…
Late nights, quiet house, demons get loud
Same walls, same pain, just a different breakdown
They said “you’re fine,” but they never looked close
Just a kid with a smile and a war no one knows

Hands shaking, heart racing, mind in a cage
Tryna scream but it’s locked in a younger age
Trust broken by the ones that should protect me
Now every touch got a memory that wrecks me

They don’t see it, they don’t hear it, they don’t care
Say I’m “overreacting,” like it’s all in the air
So I learned how to hide, yeah I learned how to cope
Turn pain into silence, turn silence to hope

(Pre-Chorus)
But hope fades quick when the night comes back
And the weight on my chest feels like all collapse
I ain’t tryna die, I just don’t wanna feel
Tryna find something numb that feels more real

(Chorus)
I just wanna feel numb enough to breathe
Far away from the pain that’s inside of me
Every scar got a story I don’t repeat
Every night I’m just fighting to stay on my feet

Numb enough just to quiet my head
All the things they did, all the things they said
I ain’t broken, I’m bent, yeah I’m barely whole
But I’m still right here, tryna not lose control

(Verse 2)
Therapy rooms and the questions they ask
Digging up memories I buried in the past
They don’t know half, they don’t know the truth
How do you explain what they took from your youth?

Fake love, fake trust, but it felt so real
When you’re starving for care, you don’t question the deal
Now I’m stuck in between what was right and wrong
Tryna figure out where I even belong

They say “talk it out,” but the words don’t come
So I sit in the silence, go emotionally numb
Every feeling too loud, every thought too deep
So I run from it all just to get some sleep

(Bridge)
But I’m still here breathing… somehow
Still standing even if I don’t know how
Yeah the pain’s still living in my chest
But I swear one day it won’t hit like this

(Chorus)
I just wanna feel numb enough to breathe
Far away from the pain that’s inside of me
Every scar got a story I don’t repeat
Every night I’m just fighting to stay on my feet

Numb enough just to quiet my head
All the things they did, all the things they said
I ain’t broken, I’m bent, yeah I’m barely whole
But I’m still right here… I’m still in control

(Outro)
Yeah… still here
And that’s gotta mean something.

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