Numb Enough

(Verse 1)

Yeah…

Late nights, quiet house, demons get loud

Same walls, same pain, just a different breakdown

They said “you’re fine,” but they never looked close

Just a kid with a smile and a war no one knows

Hands shaking, heart racing, mind in a cage

Tryna scream but it’s locked in a younger age

Trust broken by the ones that should protect me

Now every touch got a memory that wrecks me

They don’t see it, they don’t hear it, they don’t care

Say I’m “overreacting,” like it’s all in the air

So I learned how to hide, yeah I learned how to cope

Turn pain into silence, turn silence to hope

(Pre-Chorus)

But hope fades quick when the night comes back

And the weight on my chest feels like all collapse

I ain’t tryna die, I just don’t wanna feel

Tryna find something numb that feels more real

(Chorus)

I just wanna feel numb enough to breathe

Far away from the pain that’s inside of me

Every scar got a story I don’t repeat

Every night I’m just fighting to stay on my feet

Numb enough just to quiet my head

All the things they did, all the things they said

I ain’t broken, I’m bent, yeah I’m barely whole

But I’m still right here, tryna not lose control

(Verse 2)

Therapy rooms and the questions they ask

Digging up memories I buried in the past

They don’t know half, they don’t know the truth

How do you explain what they took from your youth?

Fake love, fake trust, but it felt so real

When you’re starving for care, you don’t question the deal

Now I’m stuck in between what was right and wrong

Tryna figure out where I even belong

They say “talk it out,” but the words don’t come

So I sit in the silence, go emotionally numb

Every feeling too loud, every thought too deep

So I run from it all just to get some sleep

(Bridge)

But I’m still here breathing… somehow

Still standing even if I don’t know how

Yeah the pain’s still living in my chest

But I swear one day it won’t hit like this

(Chorus)

I just wanna feel numb enough to breathe

Far away from the pain that’s inside of me

Every scar got a story I don’t repeat

Every night I’m just fighting to stay on my feet

Numb enough just to quiet my head

All the things they did, all the things they said

I ain’t broken, I’m bent, yeah I’m barely whole

But I’m still right here… I’m still in control

(Outro)

Yeah… still here

And that’s gotta mean something.