Forever yours

When you lose somebody, it’s a feeling that you can’t prepare for the closer they are to you feel like a sharp blade to your heart, the sleepless nights, the feeling of being lonely in the endless thoughts. How do we move forward? How do we cope we were supposed to grow older together now you’re just a memory will this ever go away? Will my heart stop aching ..at night It’s the worst feeling because I feel like I’m being smothered like I can’t breathe thinking of you. The feeling of being numb and stuck in one just trying to hear your voice .I’m so thankful for God giving us the gift of memory. I pray that I will see you again. I wish I could dream of you and not just think of you your voice your hugs and your laugh when we lose someone, we still have to wake up and try to move forward and provide for our family. I feel stuck. I feel guilty, my head spins and spins and spins like an endless miracle go round will my broken heart ever heal when you lose someone so close .so I say this to you love today forgive those that need to be forgiven and forget those They don’t deserve your time. God knows my heart. Trying to figure out God knows I love, but I can honestly say when you left me I felt like a major part of me died with you .now I sit here all alone in heavy tears trying to figure out what’s the easiest way of moving on. I love you in 1 million different ways and I’ll do my best to live my life remembering you . forever yours