It’s crazy how when we lose someone we love how we think what we could’ve should’ve done. We reminisce on both good and bad on oh how things could’ve changed or what things could’ve been. You have people coming from everywhere but where were they when they needed you the most we fight demons we fight Pain we fight to be seen to be heard just to be loved. why does life have to be this way? I wish life can slow down because it seems to be going too fast as we get older. It’s true. We really get more wiser. Is it too late? Is it too late to change to realize what should’ve been or could’ve been but in order to change you have to realize that we’re on borrowed time. Love don’t love just to love. Don’t act or be fake just to love to be seen to be heard love with a purpose. Love to be authentic love because that’s what God wants us to be a life of love. Missing my mom crying in my sleep, staring into the sky and just feel tears run down my cheek. Is this the new me or is this just a broken me. It’s true family all family has drama don’t try to pretend don’t do it for the gram because in the end there’s only one judge. I try to live my life the best I can move forward thinking about the ones we lost and even more importantly, my mom and my brother, how my heart is broken now how my eyes are burning how I can’t even function but why now is Is that people that never were in my life trying to be now a part of me. Don’t have sympathy because the situation where were you when you is mattered and no, it’s not about now. So when you look in the mirror and you realize it might just be you the person in the mirror that really needs to change . I love you mom forever think of you but I truly know in my heart that you’re with Jesus and my baby brother and even though I’m being selfish crying as I write this song, I miss you more than words can say I love you. I love you. I love you, mother until I see you again. And just to be heard, I will not forgive the bastard of a man who was a monster to the woman that bore me God can forgive you but all my soul you’re nothing of a man you should be shameful. You’re so lucky that my mother protected you all these years . Shame on you cause you’re gonna need God now 
