“The Last Person I Lost Was Me”

I don’t miss who I was…

I miss the person I could’ve become.

Somewhere along the way…

I disappeared.

I keep the lights off in my room,

Like darkness is the only thing that understands me.

The silence knows every secret,

Every tear I never let anybody see.

I used to look at the stars and wonder,

Now I just stare at the ceiling and wait.

Waiting for a feeling to come back,

Waiting for my heart to escape.

I gave everything I had to people,

And watched them leave like I meant nothing.

I kept saying, “I’m okay,”

Until I forgot I was lying.

I’m tired of carrying this weight,

Tired of pretending I’m not afraid.

I don’t want to be remembered as strong…

I just wanted someone to notice I was gone.

The last person I lost was me,

A ghost of who I used to be.

I watched my dreams fade away,

A little more with every day.

I’m drowning in a sea of memories,

Haunted by the things I couldn’t keep.

I’m screaming but nobody hears,

I’m fighting battles with my fears.

I’m not broken from one mistake…

I’m broken from everything I had to take.

I still keep the words I never said,

The conversations stuck inside my head.

All the apologies I never got,

All the pieces of me that they forgot.

I wonder if anyone would know

How hard it is to let pain go.

How every scar has a story behind it,

And every smile has a reason to hide it.

I became someone I don’t recognize,

Lost the fire behind my eyes.

I didn’t fall apart all at once…

I faded slowly.

Maybe someday I’ll forgive myself,

For all the nights I couldn’t help.

Maybe I’ll find the person I lost,

Even if it takes everything I’ve got.

The last person I lost was me,

But maybe that’s not where my story ends.

Maybe the pieces on the floor

Can become something again.

I’m still carrying all this pain,

Still walking through the pouring rain.

But if there’s a heartbeat left inside…

Maybe there’s still a reason to try.

I thought I lost myself forever…

But maybe I’m just waiting

to be found.