My lose and find self

So I have been hear waiting for her to come.home I have been hear a long time just waiting alone my wife my.son they are everything I have done she gave me a gift a chance for the moment to have a son I feel I have won .but I can't loose them i keep trying to get her home and it's a final decision that gad has won that he doesn't want me to be happy or be the one I can only sit for a nouther minute and wait to see watt will.become of me of my Faye as a father I wan to feel that I have won I want to feel love in side and know that she's the one bit still this loneliness inside I feel I'm falling and don't want to see watt will become so come home and make me feel that I have one