Suicide

When I am feeling down

I look to the grounds

To walk around

I try to stay proud

But most times there is no sound

Suicide is vital

Suicide is on my mind

Suicide captivates me

Suicide is spins round in my head.

Each day passes by where I don't want to be alive this is on my mind daily the thoughts of suicide humbles me so I can be made free from this lifestyle around me I struggle daily to rationalize my thinking so my mind starts sinking to the depths of the darkness so I can achieve blackness.

People say I preach suicide for attention this isn't my intention do you know what it feels like to have darkness in my mind I rarely feel happy am always sad which turns into madness my head's full of sadness I just can't seem to grasp the clasp to keep me tired down to being alive.

I am broken everyday I just try to pray and find something to save me so I can be a survivor of the suicidal tendencies but I just keep melting into liquidation this is the invasion of the thoughts rushing into paving my pathway to forever peace and less suffering.

I don't understand why these thoughts hold me prisoner am aiming to jump from the peninsula into the deeper sees I seek for my own ending because am tiered trying to mend i can't cope with this anymore it's getting to much and making me feel such sadness intertwined with madness.

Suicide is vital

Suicide is on my mind

Suicide captivates me

Suicide is spins round in my head

It feels like my thoughts are rushing through my head pushing me to the sides of death but it's not my time yet so I have to try to express how I feel to understand what healing means I feel sick to my stomach and numb to my bones I try to share my depressive tones but no one has time to listen.

Am tripping myself up in life choosing my exit via the knife as my emotions are causing crimes inside the mind this isn' a kind feeling it's very hard to navigate this feeling through life but I know my heads dead and my body and soul have left but the heart keeps beating so I not defeated.

I am attempting to revive myself so I can stay alive as I know my times not right am loosing sight of the darkness and starting to see light so my head kicks back to make me realise your life is a prize even tho you feel it's priceless as the thought of suicide misfire through the brain waves and wires.

We all feel low sometimes others fail to revive and end up dead but my head won't allow me as I have a purpose to be hear for life I will never figure out why but it's saved from dieing when am lying down to the darkness lights swarm me like the fireflies on a summer's night so I need to stay tight and get myself fixed to help other pick up there broken pieces of sticks.

Suicide is vital

Suicide is on my mind

Suicide captivates me

Suicide is spins round in my head.

The arrival of survival is vital to help me forfill.