Nobody wants me sober

Bottle on the floor, pills by the bathroom sink,

Looking at my reflection like, “What do you really think?”

Needed strangers to want me just to feel like I mattered,

Every compliment a Band-Aid on a mirror already shattered.

I confused being wanted with somebody giving a damn,

Let people cross my boundaries just to feel like I had them.

Some took what they wanted, left me carrying the shame,

So I started changing everything except the source of the pain.

Too insecure to love me, too numb to even care,

Getting dressed for validation, then crying when nobody’s there.

I kept losing little pieces every night I played pretend,

Till I couldn’t recognize the girl staring back at me again.

I was dying for attention,

Just trying to feel enough.

Let the wrong hands touch my heart

‘Cause I thought that shit was love.

I was looking for salvation

At the bottom of a cup…

Then you found me in the darkness

And you didn’t ask me to cover it up.

You didn’t come and “save me,”

You just showed me there was light.

Sat beside the broken pieces,

Never told me they looked right.

You said, “You gotta find yourself—

I’ll walk beside you while you do.”

And for once somebody loved me

Without needing something too.

Now that bathroom mirror’s different,

Same scars, but different eyes.

I’m learning being loved ain’t begging

Someone else to validate my life.

Some nights that old voice whispers,

“You’ll never be enough.”

Then you hold me while I fight it—

But I’m the one getting back up.

I still remember that sink.

That bottle.

That reflection I hated.

But I don’t miss her.

I grieve her.

She wasn’t trying to destroy herself…

She was trying to make the hurting stop

with everything except healing.

I don’t need their validation,

I’m learning I’m enough.

I know now being wanted

Ain’t the same damn thing as love.

And you never were my savior—

You just helped me see the sun.

Held a light while I found my way

Back to who I was becoming.

Pills gone from the bathroom sink.

Bottle ain’t calling my name.

I look into that mirror now…

Same face.

Different girl.

Finally finding

my way home again.