Died With a Pen in My Hand

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[Verse 1]
I was just a boy, barely beard on my face
With a pen in my hand, writing down my own fate
The ink was black like a sky ‘fore the storm
And every damn line was a tower I formed
They took you from me, no reason, no word
Cold empty room… and you just disappeared
I screamed out to God, but He stayed like the grave
And everything I was… just faded away

[Hook]
And this pain deep down in my chest
Keeps on eating me alive, never letting me rest
From second to second it gets heavy as lead
I’m still breathing… but inside I’m dead

[Verse 2]
I used to laugh, had a fire in my eyes
Now I just stare at these broken inside lines
The roads stretch long and the whiskey runs warm
But nothing can shelter me from this storm
I wanna scream from the pain, but I stay still
My lungs full of fire, but no sound breaks the will
Not a single note… just a tear through my chest
And the silence screams louder than the rest

[Hook]
And this pain deep down in my chest
Keeps on eating me alive, never letting me rest
From second to second it gets heavy as lead
I’m still breathing… but inside I’m dead

[Bridge – spoken, cracked]
They say time heals…
That’s a goddamn lie.
Time just cuts deeper…
like a rusted blade twisting inside.

[Verse 3]
Your name hangs low in the smoke of my nights
Like a curse watching over every hour of my life
I talk to the wind like you’re still right here
But all that remains… is an echo, my dear
The pen’s still lying where I fell apart
On the last dam-n line that I wrote in the dark
I tried giving you life… but gave you this pain
Now only guilt’s beating in my veins

[Hook – stronger]
And this pain deep down in my chest
Has already devoured what little was left
From second to second I fade out of me
A walking body… with nothing to be

[Outro]
I tried to scream…
but I stayed quiet like the grave
Died with a pen in my hand…
and everything I couldn’t save

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Classic Southern Dark Outlaw Country