Suicide thoughts I'm sick of doing all these drugs Need someone to trust I need someone to hug I'm so sorry. I know I'm hard to love I'm laying down in the dirt I don't know what you have heard But this is my final word Maybe you find it absurd Maybe I'll be a bird Maybe my vision is blurred God, which way would you prefer for me to go Cause it feels my heart is separate I hope you come to my gravestone and don't hesitate All these years with this hate has opened the Reaper gate Why shouldn't I be down there and suffocate Maybe I could find another way to my fate God whats my rate what's my name what have you done to me I just wanted to be free I know I have served the devil several times But sometimes you have to go through the roses So you can get close to yours closest I can't get focused I don't know if you noticed I'm on the lowest Why can't I just gain some of my pain away Every day, I cross my fingers for not being the same I knew this day was coming You knew it too but couldn't admit But Im tired of running I knew my life would end like this No more pain I wanna die I wanna fly high I don't know why I can't even lie Every time I close my eyes I hope I'll die in every prize And I'll rise above you guys You wouldn't know me. I'm in disguise I'm the sad one. All you hear is me stumble through the words I struggle with mental health in the wrong terms It feels like Im in trouble in returns How can it be my mind it burns, burns and nothing turns out to be a good nerves I don't know what I deserve It feels like I'm under a spell Im trying to yell I'm trying to tell Im not well But I act like I'm okay I'll be on the driveway I want a coffee from the cafe I don't know what to say I feel like an astray Maybe I'll be fine some way I'll sit and pray I'll smoke these feelings away Cause I search for a better day I'm dying I am not lying I'll always be above you flying I knew this day was coming You knew it too but couldn't admit But Im tired of running I knew my life would end like this No more pain I'm ready to be in the graveyard Why do I have to choose a different part I feel the pain in my heart I don't even know how I should start The darkness is so strong And it's overwhelming Listen, I'm telling you my brain is melting Why is it he keeping us My heart feels like it's under a bus There is no reason to discuss I'm trying to get through the darkness I can feel the knife' sharpness and hardness This is regardless. This isn't heartless My lyrics are harmless No one knows Those who are close I have these notes No one knows I'm always alone. I wish someone could see me I lay in the bed staring at the ceiling I don't know what I'm feeling I need somebody to heal me No one knows I sit and weeping Before I'm sleeping The voices know I'm keeping them I feel like numb I'm always so dumb Where did those voices come from I'm drowning in my thoughts

Suicide thought's