Suicide thought's

Suicide thoughts

I'm sick of doing all these drugs

Need someone to trust

I need someone to hug

I'm so sorry. I know I'm hard to love

I'm laying down in the dirt

I don't know what you have heard

But this is my final word

Maybe you find it absurd

Maybe I'll be a bird

Maybe my vision is blurred

God, which way would you prefer for me to go

Cause it feels my heart is separate

I hope you come to my gravestone and don't hesitate

All these years with this hate has opened the Reaper gate

Why shouldn't I be down there and suffocate

Maybe I could find another way to my fate

God whats my rate what's my name what have you done to me

I just wanted to be free

I know I have served the devil several times

But sometimes you have to go through the roses

So you can get close to yours closest

I can't get focused

I don't know if you noticed

I'm on the lowest

Why can't I just gain some of my pain away

Every day, I cross my fingers for not being the same

I knew this day was coming

You knew it too but couldn't admit

But Im tired of running

I knew my life would end like this

No more pain

I wanna die

I wanna fly high

I don't know why

I can't even lie

Every time I close my eyes

I hope I'll die in every prize

And I'll rise above you guys

You wouldn't know me. I'm in disguise

I'm the sad one. All you hear is me stumble through the words

I struggle with mental health in the wrong terms

It feels like Im in trouble in returns

How can it be my mind it burns, burns and nothing turns out to be a good nerves

I don't know what I deserve

It feels like I'm under a spell

Im trying to yell

I'm trying to tell

Im not well

But I act like I'm okay

I'll be on the driveway

I want a coffee from the cafe

I don't know what to say

I feel like an astray

Maybe I'll be fine some way

I'll sit and pray

I'll smoke these feelings away

Cause I search for a better day

I'm dying

I am not lying

I'll always be above you flying

I knew this day was coming

You knew it too but couldn't admit

But Im tired of running

I knew my life would end like this

No more pain

I'm ready to be in the graveyard

Why do I have to choose a different part

I feel the pain in my heart

I don't even know how I should start

The darkness is so strong

And it's overwhelming

Listen, I'm telling you my brain is melting

Why is it he keeping us

My heart feels like it's under a bus

There is no reason to discuss

I'm trying to get through the darkness

I can feel the knife' sharpness and hardness

This is regardless. This isn't heartless

My lyrics are harmless

No one knows

Those who are close

I have these notes

No one knows

I'm always alone. I wish someone could see me

I lay in the bed staring at the ceiling

I don't know what I'm feeling

I need somebody to heal me

No one knows I sit and weeping

Before I'm sleeping

The voices know I'm keeping them

I feel like numb

I'm always so dumb

Where did those voices come from

I'm drowning in my thoughts