I carry two names in my heartbeat
Two loves I never outgrew
One I felt with every breath
One I lost before I knew
Evalina, you were sunshine
A spark the world could almost see
Alexandrea, you were whispered
Still just as real to me
Pre-Chorus
They tell different stories
But they broke the same place in my soul
Chorus
I have two daughters in heaven
Two pieces of my forever
Different beginnings, same love
Neither one forgotten, never
One was taken by this broken world
One was taken too soon
But heaven knows them both by name
And I will see them soon
Verse 2
Alexandrea, I didn’t choose it
My body stayed, my voice was gone
I was just a child myself
Trying to survive what was wrong
They took my choice, they took my power
They took you from my womb
But love doesn’t need permission
To grieve what was stolen too
Pre-Chorus
I’ve carried guilt that was never mine
For far too long
Chorus
I have two daughters in heaven
One I never got to protect
One I held and had to let go
But both left the same effect
I ache for what I never had
And what I almost did
But loss doesn’t measure time
It only measures love
Bridge
Sometimes I imagine you together
Hand in hand, no pain between
Evalina showing you butterflies
Alexandrea teaching you how to dream
No one gets to rewrite my story
Or tell me who I’m allowed to miss
You were both my babies
And I will stand on that truth
Break (soft, trembling)
I was hurt.
I was powerless.
But I loved you anyway.
Final Chorus
I have two daughters in heaven
And I say your names out loud
Because silence doesn’t deserve
To be where love is found
I will not be ashamed of you
Or the way I lost you both
You were mine, you are mine
And you always will be known
Outro
Evalina…
Alexandrea…
If heaven ever echoes with prayer
Know this —
Your mom is still loving you
Everywhere
trixses
