He is with me

The house is quiet, but my mind won’t rest
Every shadow knows her name
I stare at the ceiling, count my breaths
Try not to fall apart again

My thoughts run circles till the morning
Every “what if” cuts too deep
I lose another night to missing her
And fighting just to sleep

Pre-Chorus
I whisper prayers between the panic
With shaking hands and tired faith

Chorus
I lose sleep thinking of her
And fighting my own mind
But God is here the whole time
Even when I’m losing the fight
When my chest feels too heavy
And I can’t outrun the pain
He stays awake with me
And calls me by my name

Verse 2
Some nights my heart won’t slow down
Old wounds start talking loud
Grief and fear take turns with me
Like they’ve both figured out how

I tell myself I should be stronger
I’ve survived worse, haven’t I?
But survival feels different at night
When all the walls come down

Pre-Chorus
I don’t have answers
Just a need to not be alone

Chorus
I lose sleep thinking of her
And wrestling with my head
Every memory, every dread
Feels heavier in bed
But God is here the whole time
When I’m breaking in the dark
Holding every shattered piece
Of my exhausted heart

Bridge
He doesn’t rush my healing
Doesn’t shame my tears
He sits with me in the silence
And stays when the fear appears

When my thoughts turn cruel and loud
And I forget what’s true
He reminds me I’m still breathing
And that means He’s not through

Break (soft, whispered)
I’m still here
Because He’s still here

Final Chorus
I may lose sleep thinking of her
And fighting my mental health
But I don’t fight this battle alone
I don’t have to save myself
When the night feels endless
And morning feels too far
God is here the whole time
Right where my broken thoughts are

Outro
So I’ll rest when I can
And cry when I need
Knowing even sleepless nights
Are still held gently
Because He never left me
Not once, not then, not now
God stayed the whole time
And He’s staying somehow

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