Still here by trixses - Zona

Still here by trixses - Zona

Lyrics

Verse 1

I was born into a war I didn’t choose

Hands that were meant to hold left bruises

I learned real young how to stay quiet

How to disappear so I wouldn’t incite it

Love came dressed up like control

Fear made a permanent home in my bones

I was taught that pain was normal

That surviving meant being emotional collateral

Pre-Chorus

I swallowed screams, I buried truth

I learned to bleed without leaving proof

Every mirror showed a stranger’s face

Trying to live in a haunted place

Chorus

They tore me down piece by piece

Called it love, called it discipline

I was breaking while begging for peace

But nobody came — nobody listened

I carried anger like a loaded gun

Turned it inward till I almost died

I didn’t want to live… I just wanted it done

But something in me still survived

Verse 2

I wore strength like a second skin

Even when I didn’t believe in it

Smiles stitched over open wounds

Laughing while my soul was consumed

I trusted people who should’ve protected

Loved ones who left me uncorrected

I learned how to hate my own name

How to feel guilty for feeling pain

Pre-Chorus

I blamed myself for their sins

For the way they broke me from within

I thought if I just tried harder

I’d finally be worth being guarded

Chorus

They ripped my heart out, taught me shame

Taught me silence, taught me blame

I was torn between rage and fear

Between wanting gone and wanting near

I gave up once — I won’t lie

I stood too close to the edge

But I didn’t die… I didn’t die

Even when everything in me begged

Bridge

I’ve screamed at God, I’ve cursed the dark

I’ve stitched myself up in the park

I’ve loved too fast, I’ve trusted wrong

I’ve carried trauma way too long

But listen close — I’m still breathing

Still here, still bleeding, still believing

If hell couldn’t keep me, neither can fear

I earned every scar that brought me here

Break (spoken / whispered)

I am not weak for surviving abuse

I am not broken — I was used

I am not angry without a cause

I am a survivor of things you never saw

Final Chorus

They didn’t finish what they started

I’m still standing, still scarred, still guarded

I turned pain into armor and truth

Into a voice they couldn’t mute

I almost died trying to disappear

But I lived — and I’m still here

This is my name, this is my song

I survived what should’ve killed me all along

Outro

I am not the past they left behind

I am the proof that I survived

And if I shake, if I still cry

That’s not weakness — that’s being alive