Dark days 99

Nobody understands me. 
They all just want to make demands of me. 
It's getting bad enough that I just want to give up.
Some days whatever I  try, the only thing I accomplish is wiping the tears from my eye. 
It's difficult when nobody wants a hear, the things that I hold dear.
Everybody wants things to go their own way. 
Nobody has time to listen to me today.
I'm feeling lost and alone. 
It's like you don't 
even hear me when you talk on the phone.
I understand some things may not be valid. 
It's not like every song I have is a ballad.
It feels like I have more sadness in the rest of the world. 
Kinda like my wings have been clipped my sails cut and I've been curled.
So I guess I have a confession.... 
feels like I'm diving deep back into depression. 
I don't think it's going to take one more session.....
but I hope I can leave a lasting impression. 
you always have to be vigilant because there's regression. 
It's hard because everybody's going to be pressing.....
do this do that. don't do the other. 
keep my emotions under cover!  
feels like I'm a toy and life wants to play with me. 
and everybody else wants to do away with me .
I just wish I had somebody to understand. 
standing here is a BROKEN  man. 
no, I don't have a plan. 
and to me ........it's okay!
let's continue the narrative.....
I can't stress enough that it's imperative 
This is just a continuation 
of my life and its frustration 
I've tried to put together a delegation 
seems like they're all in mitigation 
I'm in an emotional state of deflation 
I can't get a straight answer to my question 
which leads me back to my confession 
the fact that I feel like I'm going back into depression 
I need to express something emotional 
music is the way I do it. it's devotional 
with rhythm and rhyme and keeps in time All these words are really mine. it comes from the heart all the way back at the start. I don't care if it's repetitious probably a little bit malicious. it's one thing it's not is fictitious. this is how I feel to everyone else. it may not be a big deal, I understand that and I'm just trying to keep it real. anyway I guess that's all I have to say., for today. 
maybe tomorrow I won't feel the sorrow. I won't have to borrow your ear. 
maybe I'll be a man of the  year starting to give back  instead of giving into fear.
There is one thing I do know, I will not let it show. Playing the facade on the go!  Take care..... take care.... till next time.

Emotional,Rap,drums and bass