PHLEBOTOMIST

I don’t even feel the prick

when you pull me back again

Too caught up in the contact

till I’m bleeding out again

You take a little more from me

leave me with less and less

Then act like I’m the problem

when I’m clutching at my chest

I shoulda known better

same needle, same vein

You come back with that softness

and I hand you my pain

You don’t even need a knife

you know exactly where I bleed

You drain me till I’m weak

just to get your damn relief

I’m tired of bleeding

tired of handing you veins

Pissed that you keep taking

pissed I keep doing the same

I know what comes after

I know how this ends

But you pull me back in close

and I bleed for you again

Phlebotomist

you don’t cut, you drain

Take a little more from me

then leave me with the pain

Phlebotomist

same pattern, same pain

You come for the donation

and I still let you drain

You take a little more from me

leave me with less and less

Then act like I’m the problem

when I’m clutching at my chest

You don’t take it all at once

you take it slow enough

A call here, a touch there

just enough to feel like love

You know how to reach for me

come and get what you can take

Leave me bleeding on the floor

then question why I ache

I don’t feel it in the moment

too caught up when you come through

You get what you came for

then I’m left all bruised

I keep calling it connection

when it feels like being used

You get peace from my softness

I get scars from loving you

I see the chair

I see the needle

I see your hands

I know the sequel

I know the room

I know the smell

I know the heaven

turns into hell

But I still sit down

still roll my sleeve

still let you take

what’s left of me

I’m pissed you know just how to drain

pissed I still don’t walk away

You don’t even have to ask

I hand my damn blood away

You call it love

I call it loss

You get relief

I pay the cost

I ain’t your healing

I ain’t your fix

I ain’t your blood bank

for your selfish shit

Phlebotomist

you don’t cut, you drain

Take a little more from me

then leave me with the pain

Phlebotomist

same pattern, same pain

You come for the donation

and I still let you drain

You take a little more from me

leave me with less and less

Then act like I’m the problem

when I’m clutching at my chest

Phlebotomist

I know what this is

You don’t love me right

you just know where I give

No more vein

no more need

no more watching me bleed

No more skin

no more ache

no more pieces left to take

No more vein

no more need

no more watching me bleed

You don’t get to call it love

when all you do is drain me

Phlebotomist

all you do is drain me

Phlebotomist

all you do is drain me