Afterthought

You called me with a headline

then left me in the dark

gave me hope then went silent

like you don’t know what you start

I called you once

you killed it on the sixth ring

then ain’t call me back all day

like I don’t mean a thing

I text you now

and it disappears

you used to answer

now I’m talking to the air

I’m in this text thread by myself

talking straight into the void

you used to make me feel chosen

now I’m background noise

You can scroll

you can swipe

you can be online all night

engaging with posts

when I need you most

but can’t ask if I’m alright

You keep me waitin’

but I ain’t chasin’

even when you disappear

and leave me achin’

You say you’re stressin’

while I’m over here guessin’

entertain other females

where the hell does that leave me

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Afterthought

I’m tired of being found

only when the silence gets loud

You don’t reach

when your world feels full

you circle back

when the quiet pulls

I’m not your pause

between the noise

I’m not your backup

when you run out of toys

I don’t have a pause button

I’m not here to fill your gaps

you don’t get to leave me waiting

then come back when the silence snaps

I’m not taking the back seat

while you’re driving the car

you don’t get to steer my heart

then act like we drove too far

You know you left me hanging

so you wait till the next day

hoping I’ll be soft again

and let that shit fade away

You leave me breadcrumbs

while you take the whole damn plate

keep me starving for your effort

while you feast on what I gave

You keep tossing me pieces

like I’m starving on a leash

not enough to feel chosen

just enough to take my peace

You keep me waitin’

but I ain’t chasin’

even when you disappear

and leave me achin’

You say you’re stressin’

while I’m over here guessin’

entertain other females

where the hell does that leave me

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Afterthought

I’m tired of being found

only when the silence gets loud

You don’t reach

when your world feels full

you circle back

when the quiet pulls

I’m not your pause

between the noise

I’m not your backup

when you run out of toys

You call it expectations

I call it common sense

you want all the freedom

but no consequence

You say you do what you want

like your ego might get bruised

I just wanted basic care

not another damn excuse

I don’t need the whole story

I don’t need your half-truths

I know I called you hours ago

and I ain’t heard shit from you

You act like you care

but your heart’s full of rust

you go do what you wanna do

then leave me in the dust

Time filler

Afterthought

I’m tired of being found

only when the silence gets loud

You don’t reach

when your world feels full

you circle back

when the quiet pulls

I’m not your pause

between the noise

I’m not your backup

when you run out of toys