I used to believe in fairytales, castles in the sky
Now every dream I ever had just passes me by
Heartache took control, rewrote the man I see
I’m breathing but I’m buried in a dead version of me
I try my best, but my best don’t stand a chance
Same mistakes, different days, same circumstance
I scream inside but it echoes in a tone
Same words, different voice — nowhere feels like home
Maybe one day…
This song will change…
But right now every note still sounds the same…
Maybe one day I’ll climb out this abyss
But today I’m chained to the weight of this
Every step forward feels like I slip
I’m stuck in the dark and I’m losing my grip
Maybe one day this pain won’t exist
But today… today is all that there is…
Pour another drink just to quiet the noise
Laughing with ghosts of forgotten soldiers
Old uniforms hanging in the back of my mind
Black and white memories I can’t rewind
Doctor says I’m seeing things — maybe he’s right
Faces in the shadows when I turn out the light
Isaiah… Marshall… Segovia… names I still hear
Writing them alive even though they’re not here
What it could be ain’t what it was
Every “what if” just tightens the cuffs
Maybe one day…
I’ll see it clear…
But right now silence is all I hear…
Maybe one day I’ll climb out this abyss
But today I’m chained to the weight of this
Every step forward feels like I slip
I’m stuck in the dark and I’m losing my grip
Maybe one day this pain won’t exist
But today… today is all that there is…
I’m stuck in hell with the devil yelling “Checkmate”
Cornered in a mind I can’t escape
Pack my regrets in a box on the curb
Feed me to the dark where the silence hurts
I still pray but I don’t know why
I just wanna see my brother just one more time I just want to see my grandma’s face just one more time I just want to see my uncles one more time then I’ll happily go into my eternal fire in accept my end to this fucking nightmare
Maybe one day this song won’t be mine
Maybe one day I’ll leave it behind
But tonight I’m buried under the weight of time
Stuck in the dark, crossing every line
Maybe one day… maybe someday…
But today I’m just trying to survive the night…
