Tattoo My Name Back

[Verse 1]
Alarm on the floor
Didn’t even hit snooze this time
Just lay there
Counting every reason I’m behind
Sink full of dishes
Head full of static and blame
Friends think I’m busy
I’m just scrolling through the shame
[Pre-Chorus]
Say I’m fine, I’m lying through my teeth
Bite my tongue till it bleeds
If my brain was a friend
I would’ve left it on read last week
[Chorus]
I keep calling myself a failure
Like that’s the only name I’ve got
But I’m done letting that behavior
Be the tattoo that I never asked for
I’ve been breaking in the same place
Same crack, same floorboard
I want to love this tired face
Tattoo my name back in gold (in gold)
Tattoo my name back in gold
[Verse 2]
Therapist asking
“When’s the last time you felt proud?”
I laugh, look down
Try to disappear into the ground
Got dreams in a closet
Under three old hoodies and dust
Say “someday”
But I never give them my trust
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m so used to losing in my head
I forfeit before I begin
But every time I’m breathing still
That’s a tiny, stubborn win
[Chorus]
I keep calling myself a failure
Like that’s the only name I’ve got
But I’m done letting that behavior
Be the tattoo that I never asked for
I’ve been breaking in the same place
Same crack, same floorboard
I want to love this tired face
Tattoo my name back in gold (oh, in gold)
Tattoo my name back in gold
[Bridge]
What if I’m not broken
Just bruised from all the hits I took
What if this whole time
I’ve been more than what they never looked
What if every panic
Is proof I still want to stay
What if all this damage
Is just clay I get to shape
[Chorus]
I keep calling myself a failure
Like that’s the only name I’ve got
But I’m done letting that behavior
Be the tattoo that I never asked for
I’ve been breaking in the same place
Same crack, same floorboard
I want to love this tired face
Tattoo my name back in gold (yeah, in gold)
Tattoo my name back in gold (my own gold)
Tattoo my name back in gold

rap, Hybrid alt-rap / pop-rock, midtempo. Intimate keys and distant guitar in the verse with close-mic male vocals, then drums slam in for a big, shout-along hook. 808-weighted low end under live bass, distorted guitars answering the vocal in the chorus. Layers of gang vocals on the title line, last chorus lifts with octave doubles and a soaring countermelody guitar., alternative rock, pop, hard rock, hip hop