Friends With My D£M0N$

(I need to slow down, I’m roaming…)

(Telling all my stories like we’re homies…)

(I need to slow down, I’m roaming…)

(Talking to my demons like they know me…)

Like we’re homies

Man, I need to slow down, I’m roaming,

Sitting with my demons telling stories like they know me. Pull up a chair, boys, shit, you’re already here, Been hanging in my head for what feels like years. Never invited you into the session,

Still you show up asking twenty-one questions.

Nodding your heads like, “Yeah, we understand,”

Like you didn’t help put this depression in my hands.

You laugh when I tell you I’m barely getting by,

Then say, “Come on, buddy, you’ll be alright.”

Funny coming from the ones keeping me up every night, But we talk like old friends, so I let that shit slide. You know every mistake, every person, every scar, Every dream that I chased that didn’t get far.

You tell me, “Keep dreaming there, buddy, go ahead,” Then laugh amongst yourselves when I get in my head. I know your game, Like I know all ur names

(I need to slow down, I’m roaming…)

(Telling all my stories like we’re homies…)

(Sitting with the demons that all know me…)

(They ain’t really friends, but they get lonely…)

(I need to slow down, I’m roaming…)

(Talking to my demons like they’re homies…)

(I need to slow down, I’m roaming…)

(Maybe I got way too comfortable knowing them…)

It’s getting funny now, We’ve been together so long I know when you’re coming around. One of you brings my past, One brings doubt,

One starts talking shit whenever hope comes out. Like, “Remember her” Yeah, man, I remember. “Remember who you were” Yeah… every December.

“Remember everything you could do back then”

Alright, alright, there you fucking go again.

See, this is why we can’t be friends.

You always guide me in reverse,

Wait until I’m doing good, then remind me of the worst.I thought maybe after all these years

We could coexist without you feeding all my fears.

But you ain’t here for friendship,

You’re here for control. You call yourself company

While eating at my soul. And I’ll admit

There were nights I needed somebody around,

And you were the only voices making any sound.

So I started talking back, started letting you stay,

Started treating my destruction like a friend again. But homies don’t celebrate when homies break. Homies don’t keep reopening every mistake.

Homies don’t smile when you’re losing yourself.

So maybe you demons Ain’t my homies after all.

(I need to slow down, I’m roaming…)

(Telling all my stories like we’re homies…)

(I need to slow down, I’m roaming…)

(Talking to my demons like they know me…)

(I need to slow down, I’m roaming…)

(They’ve been hanging with me when I’m lonely…)

(I need to slow down, I’m roaming…)

(Maybe it’s time they stop controlling me…)

You can talk,

I won’t listen.

You can bring up my past,

I don’t gotta relive it.

You saw every tear

I wouldn’t show anyone.

You heard every thought

I was afraid to speak.

now I’m far to deep

Just wish you leave me be