I want you to know how sorry that I am because although I didnt want you to know a life with me there much less than I wish as a father I ended up being in your life my precious little baby girl the best day of my life is when you were born my sweet beautiful daughter your my happiness on days I lose my strength and life is too much buckling me to the point I find few reasons to smile I think on how you need me to be strong and able to continue fighting to keep being there for you and your mother as we try to navigate how to be the best parents we can learn to be even if we did not work out as lovers im proud of the way your mom has moved mountains to give you all she has and done the things she has had to at times all alone grinding hard to fight the things she feels inside yet hides behind a strong mask so you do not have to know the pressure always on her you just are so lucky to have her as your mom I admit she's one of the best mothers I've seen in life and though she and I were for awhile states apart we did what we could to try to take care of you as a team I had to build my way up due to falling in my life in many ways too much happened to explain to you for the moment you are still so young in life in time you'll come to understand but im just thankful to god that life brought you back to me you once again live close to me and so I get to visit you and let you spend more time with me its such a happy time in life for me as a dad I want to give you all I can to show you how much I love and have missed you I am proud of the little personality you somehow have grown into I can't believe your already 9 it feels like yesterday I was rocking you to sleep singing lullaby after lullaby into your tiny ears just a newborn I was so amazed seeing you enter this life to be my child it wasn't planned but such a gift from god out of nowhere I looked into your eyes and my heart simply melted and on that day is when I changed my ways I stopped the type of lifestyle I had been living that choice was to leave a past behind where I was a boy living for fun and nothing more and turned into a young man ready to take his first steps into whatever it would take of me to evolve leveling up as much as I felt was needed of me. And there was indeed many levels back then still aboe me but I couldn't let you and your mother do it all alone I worked hard to build my life up and now so many years of hardship and struggle later im honestly able to say I have gotten better and grown more able as a father I have a little more to juggle and effort to apply but im finally close to having what I needed to have to be the dad you need along the way I've done so much I made some mistakes and you have hurt missing me at times I worked too many hours fixing my issues on my side of life throughout all of the time that's passed by I just want to say its been amazing watching you grow into the unique person you are. And its been such a blessing the way your mother has been
