Narcs

When I think—everything goes dark, I’m at my wits’ end

Guess I walk alone… just a tall, dark man who don’t fit in

Used to love to draw—man, what happened to it?

Used to snap pictures for peace, ….now I’m more reclusive

I used to love this girl—5’9”, La Unión,Salvador

Never knew she came with pain I couldn’t ignore

Thought it started sweet… hold up, lemme breathe for a sec

Unpack the baggage—grab a seat, because this story’s complex

She had my heart, running wild, moving reckless……

Told me her uncle touched her—I held her through depression

Said she never knew love—I changed the definition

Gave her comfort, gave her time,

gave her my full attention

She said she wanted more—something her mom can’t afford

I helped her study, late nights, she passed her test—I lost my rest

But damn…

She had a dream, big cream, life her momma can’t reach

Now she messing with them doctors for a chance in the seat

Trading dignity for digits, let ’em write her a receipt

Had to “tick the box”… now she ticking cocks for the free,

Said it was MY fault?——hoe don’t talk to me…..

I’m breaking through these chains that you done tossed me in…….

You said you want my pain… so I’ma let it all spill

You gon’ feel it ‘til I’m drained—can’t never be the same, fr for real

That’s why I’m duckin’, dodgin’ bitches, running through fields

Going through stress—keepin’ it in ’til it kill

I been quiet too long, they mistakin’ me still

Heart heavy like steel… I ain’t chasin’ no thrill

I gave love, gave trust, and they just gave me the chills

So if I ghost—know I left just to heal…

(Heal…..)

Yeah…..

(9 yrs man……..)

(But I’m the villain though……)

(Embrace that shit……)

(Embrace……..it…..)