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[INTRO]
Yeah…
I been running from the same damn shadow
Different room, same walls, same battle
Everybody asking why I never change
I just learned how to hide the pain better
[VERSE 1]
I got demons in the rearview, ghosts in the passenger
Promises turned ashes, love turned into anger
Five years of forever, now forever’s in the past
Funny how you build a future just to watch it fucking crash
I know I fucked up, I ain’t asking you to save me
I just wish the person that I loved could’ve believed me
Had a picture in my head of how our whole life was supposed to be
Now I’m staring in the mirror like, what the fuck is wrong with me?
I lost time, lost trust, lost pieces of my name
Every time I tried to numb it, I just multiplied the pain
Everybody got opinions, everybody saw my flaws
Nobody saw the nights I was at war behind these walls
I ain’t saying I’m a victim, I know I played a part
I just never learned to fix a fucking broken heart
So I poisoned every good thing trying to keep myself alive
Now I’m counting all the reasons that she finally said goodbye
[HOOK]
I guess forever was only five years long
One thousand eight hundred twenty-five days gone
I was trying to hold together everything that I broke
Now I’m drowning in the words that I was too scared to spoke
And I’m watering dead roses like they’re somehow gonna bloom
Talking to your memory alone inside my room
If I could go back, I’d do everything I could
But time don’t give a fuck about what I wish I would’ve understood
[VERSE 2]
Mom said, “Come home,” Dad said, “You gotta get right”
But I kept making enemies with every fucking sunrise
I kept chasing temporary peace with permanent consequences
Turned apologies to habits, turned my habits into sentences
Jail cells, locked doors, programs, trying to rebuild
Learning that the hardest fucking fight is wanting to live still
Seven days, two months, four months—time moving slow
Every place they sent me taught me something I ain’t wanna know
I got sober just enough to see the damage I had done
Had to face every reflection instead of reaching for a gun—
Nah, I ain’t romanticizing death, I’m just explaining where my head was
I was looking for an exit when I really needed someone to help us
Now I’m standing in the wreckage with the pieces in my hands
Trying to become somebody that my family understands
I can’t change the past, but I can finally tell the truth:
I was hurting everybody ‘cause I didn’t know what else to do
[HOOK]
I guess forever was only five years long
One thousand eight hundred twenty-five days gone
I was trying to hold together everything that I broke
Now I’m drowning in the words that I was too scared to spoke
And I’m watering dead roses like they’re somehow gonna bloom
Talking to your memory alone inside my room
If I could go back, I’d do everything I could
But time don’t give a fuck about what I wish I would’ve understood
[BRIDGE — HALF-TIME]
Maybe I’m not who they said I was
Maybe I’m not who I wanted to be
Maybe somewhere
Details
GeneratedSep 18, 2026
Duration3:48
LanguageEnglish
Style
Dark dark, distorted, aggressive, and introspective with long, breathless flows and a Southern-underground feel
Credits
Prompt byGageuhrooskiii
ModelAria v6
