Intro]
Yeah.
This one ain’t pretty.
This one’s the truth.
You were supposed to protect me.
[Verse 1 – childhood]
I was just a kid, scared in my own damn home,
Walking on eggshells, feeling so alone,
Every scream, every slam, every hateful tone,
Made me feel like my safety was overthrown.
You were fighting your demons, yeah I get that now,
But tell me who the hell was protecting me? How?
I needed a mom, not chaos in every room,
Not fear hanging thick like smoke and doom.
I learned early love comes with pain attached,
That trust gets broken, and hearts get snatched,
And every time shit went wrong, I got blamed or snapped at,
Like I was the problem — imagine that.
[Pre-Chorus]
A kid don’t hate their mom for nothing,
A kid begs to be loved before they start running.
[Chorus]
You were supposed to be my safe place,
Not another nightmare I had to escape.
I needed arms that protected me,
Not wounds that still fucking bleed.
And every time I cried for help,
You turned away, left me by myself,
So don’t ask why I grew up cold,
You let your little girl break alone.
[Verse 2 – telling her about the rape]
Then the day came I finally spoke the truth,
Shaking, terrified, reliving my youth,
Told you what they did, what I’d been through,
And I swear my whole world depended on you.
I needed a mother, rage, comfort, protection,
Needed you to burn the world in my defense,
But your silence cut deeper than their aggression,
Like my pain was just another inconvenience.
Do you know what it feels like to confess that pain?
To relive trauma over and over again?
Just to feel like you’re standing alone in the rain,
While your own mother don’t know what to say?
That shit broke something inside me for real,
Made me wonder if my pain was even real,
Like maybe I should’ve just shut up and healed,
Instead of hoping my own mom would feel.
[Chorus]
You were supposed to be my safe place,
Not another memory I gotta erase.
I needed love when my soul was torn,
Not silence while I mourned.
And every time I cried for help,
I learned to save my damn self,
So don’t ask why my heart turned cold,
You let your daughter hurt alone.
[Verse 3 – suicide attempt call]
Then the night I almost didn’t make it through,
Pain so heavy I didn’t know what to do,
Called you from the edge, broken and bruised,
Hoping this time you’d finally choose me too.
Instead you made me feel ashamed I lived,
Like surviving was something I shouldn’t have did,
Like my pain was a burden you didn’t wanna deal with,
That shit almost finished what trauma started, shit.
Do you know how deep that cut goes?
Hearing disappointment when your kid almost ghosts?
That’s when something in me froze,
And I finally let go.
[Bridge – cold clarity]
That’s when I knew…
I can love you for giving me life.
But I’ll never love you as my mother.
Because mothers don’t let their daughters drown.
[Final Chorus]
You were supposed to be my safe place,
But I had to save my damn self anyway.
And now I’m healing without you near
.You are dead to me ma
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