Verse 1]
Stephanie, you told me everything was on me
Every scream in that house somehow became my story
You said your sickness, your stress, your pain, your heart
All of it was my fault from the start
You’d say, “Look what you’re doing to me again,”
While I was just a kid trying to understand
How a child becomes the villain in her own home
How I learned so young I was already alone
I remember brushing knots from my own hair
Crying in the mirror wishing someone cared
Nobody showed me how to grow into myself
I had to raise a child that nobody else helped
[Pre-Chorus]
And kids aren’t supposed to carry that weight
They’re supposed to feel safe
Not learn survival before they learn their name
[Chorus]
Stephanie, you told me I was the reason you broke
Every heart scare, every time you choked
Said your heart attacks were because of me
Like a child holds that responsibility
Maybe you were sick, maybe you were hurting too
But blaming your daughter was never something you should do
And whether by anger or by default
You still made me carry all the fault
Now I’m undoing curses you put in me
Trying to learn the woman I was never taught to be
[Verse 2]
I never had a childhood, just survival mode
Watching everyone else get love I never got at home
Girls learned makeup and braids from their moms
I learned silence and how to stay calm
No one taught me what to do when my body changed
I figured it out alone through confusion and shame
Trying to learn womanhood from whispers and friends
Because asking you only started fights again
You were supposed to guide me through growing pains
Instead, I learned how to hide bruises and blame
And now I’m grown still fixing parts of me
That broke when you refused to see
[Pre-Chorus]
And maybe you were drowning in your own mind
But you left your daughter behind
[Chorus]
Stephanie, you told me I was the reason you broke
Every heart scare, every time you choked
Said your heart attacks were because of me
Like a child holds that responsibility
Maybe you were sick, maybe you were hurting too
But blaming your daughter was never something you should do
And whether by anger or by default
You still made me carry all the fault
Now I’m undoing curses you put in me
Trying to learn the woman I was never taught to be
[Bridge — breaking, angry]
A child doesn’t ruin a mother’s life
A child doesn’t cause a heart to fail at night
A child doesn’t deserve to feel like a curse
Just for being born into something worse
You say you did your best — maybe you believe that’s true
But your best still broke something in me too
[Final Chorus — emotional release]
Stephanie, I’m still healing from your storms
Still learning love doesn’t have to come with war
Still teaching myself things you never showed
Still unpacking pain I was forced to hold
And I hope one day you understand the cost
Of a daughter who felt forever lost
But this curse ends here with me
I’m finally learning how to be free
[Outro — soft]
I was just a kid
And I deserved a mom
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