Seen how it started and I’ve charted how it will
end
Thought I was strong enough but I got broke and did not bend.
When the day comes will I feel dumb and be full of regret
It’s a constant game that’s driving me insane everydays Russian roulette.
They say people will miss me some will be pissed at me calling me greedy
But they don’t feel the pain only the peace trust me I know my daughter needs me.
I would have left 4 years ago if I didn’t know I was having child
Been on my mind for quite some time smiling while dying always feels wild.
My mind is on a decline and I must find the potion to peace
It’s not meds but instead a guns chamber about to be released.
In the beginning life seemed right was a solid wide piece of rope
But string after string the pain starts to sting an I lose all hope
My candle can’t handle the cold an one day it will dim
Just know I love you all and pray in life you always win.
My eyes open as I was hoping they would forever be sealed
I’d rather die then stay alive an witness the evil be revealed.
Pull the trigger or tie the noose
Put the safety on or make it loose
The choices of the voices who scream wisdom in our ears
Feed you madness or sadness that eventually creates a fear.
Walking on eggs shells and I fell it turned out to be glass
It’s easy to break a person whose heart has already been cracked.
Good with my words just not with my voice
Speaking is a privilege but I never had a choice.
I’m just a misused mentally abused mute
Tossed in the trash like some rotten fruit.
When my last day arrives I hope I don’t survive an I go peacefully
No pain just peace and my heart beat stops very easily.