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Everyday I walk the eternal night. My feelings and emotions suppressed almost absent. Everything every building blending together. What’s left and why am I here? I hold back demons that could level civilization. I observe the world around me. Pointless conversations mindlessly chatter fill my ears. What’s the point? BANG! BAMG! BAMG! My mind flashes back to my m4, my constant companion. Every day blurs together. No one notices the demons tearing me apart inside. I look on and only see night even as the sun shines! My mind betraying me with every haunting failure. Life seems to fade as o try to remember everything good. My daughter and sisters. I have to convince myself. If I don’t…… if I don’t…….. I look forward to the next day even as eternal night reigns. My demons scream but I hold them back as I walk pretending to be normal.. a trick that fools everyone except my only brother. Yet I continue… I continue…. And I don’t even know why any more. My only solace is the promise I made to God being his physical shield…. Everything else seems to fade. Pointless conversations. Pointless meetings… no meaning. No real answers. Just a waste of time…. But now I wait. Oh I wait…. Wondering, waiting for the time, a time I don’t even know to be useful once more.

Melancholic Lo-fi with Nostalgic Synths, rap, house