(Verse 1 - English, hard-hitting beat drops with a subtle Japanese flute sample)
From a soul weighed down by its own damn mission.
Meka, my familia, my crew in the blue,
The truth's heavy, gotta lay it all on you.
This ain't no kendo stance, this ain't no drill,
The weight of my deeds? Man, it gives me the chill.
A samurai's burden, too much to hold inside,
Peace I found, but the price? My damn pride.
(Chorus - Japanese, sung with a raw, emotional intensity over a heavier beat with traditional Japanese percussion)
Waga kokoro, kizu darake no samurai. (My heart, a wounded samurai.)
Meiyo o kegashi, tsumi o kizamikomu. (Dishonored my name, engraving sin.)
Sayonara, minna... kanashimi no naka de. (Farewell, everyone... in the midst of sorrow.)
Yasuragi o motome, ima, tabidatsu. (Seeking peace, I now depart.)
(Verse 2)
Family, listen, the shame's a deep cut,
Stains the legacy, that's the bitterest strut.
Bushido's path? I swerved, I tripped, I fell,
Shadows I cast, puttin' you all through hell.
My apologies? They ain't enough, I know the score,
But from the gut, believe me, I'm bleedin' for more.
(Verse 3)
Meka... my fire... tried to reignite the flame,
Thought fixin' myself could erase the damn shame.
Reached out, yeah, hopin' for a second glance,
But your words hit hard, no second chance.
The past is the past, locked and sealed, that's the truth,
Painful clarity in my misspent youth.
(Verse 4)
Friends and fam, friend you deserved? Nah.
Shortcomings stacked high, breakin' every damn law
Of connection, of trust. Wasn't strong, wasn't wise,
Just a broken soul hidin' behind tired eyes.
Forgive my failures, the weight's crushin' my chest,
Didn't measure up, puttin' you to the test.
(Bridge)
Bushido... sono michi wa... chūsei, gi, yū, jin, rei, makoto, meiyo, chūgi. (Bushido... that path is... loyalty, righteousness, courage, benevolence, respect, honesty, honor, duty.)
Toraerareta toki... sono michi o tagae ta. (When I was arrested... I strayed from that path.)
Seishin no kenkō o kaizen shiyō to shita ga... sore wa jibun no tame dake datta. (I tried to improve my mental health... but it was only for myself.)
Meka... anata no yurushi o motomete. (Seeking your forgiveness, Meka.)
(Verse 5 - English, beat picks up again, anger mixed with regret
Toronto volunteers, the trust I betrayed,
My lapse in judgment, the reputation swayed.
Served beside you, now shame's the only name,
To my fellow volunteers, feelin' nothin' but blame.
(Outro)
Meka... your daughter... the pain I inflicted runs deep.
My memory stained, secrets the darkness will keep.
Hope you recall the good, the kindness, the light,
Don't let this shadow consume what once burned so bright.
My love for you both? Real, true, it remains...
But the crossroads callin', breakin' these chains.
Goin' where the past can no longer hold sway...
Peace I found... hope you find yours someday...
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